-- euphoriclove#<3

love.

2012-01-20T00:47:00.005+08:00

Not done trying to get over one issue another one appears.

One after another and another.

Can only say physical pain is nothing compared to the mental ones,

because it the mental pain that drives one crazy.

Maybe I dwell too much on the past,

but if nothing happened there won't be anything to dwell on.

On what basis does one trust that a guy can stay true to only one girl.

Just when you thought you found someone different,

it really won't be long before they prove you wrong.

Guys are really all the same.

Unable to resist the attention they get from girls,

indulging themselves in the feeling of being wanted by others even though they are already wanted by one.
It's just never enough.

Not even gonna lie I seriously hate it.

Is it just guys who are too selfish or girls who are too selfless.

Promises are nothing unless they are fulfilled.

Words can be nothing, but words can also kill.

Fucking, fucking, fucking tired.

In this fucking state I still have to complete three fucking essays.

SERIOUSLY HOW MANY FUCKING ISSUES MUST I DEAL WITH IN JUST ONE RELATIONSHIP FUCK.

Am really going crazy and can't take it any much longer.

With all these episodes playing in my head non-stop for every fucking single day,

my life would probably shorten by another year everyfuckingday.

Sorry doesn't help because it just mean the damage is already done.

Ironic that I stick to the words you said but you didn't.

Fucking paradox that when i'm with you I am sad and happy at the same time all the time.

Don't be stress? How not to be.

Every month one new drama.

Before I even have time to COPE with the first a new one comes along.

What fucking faith am I suppose to have when every relationship is the same,

disappointing.

Definitely another sleepless night.

Damn it.

Even if I die now the amount of rest I get after death won't be enough to compensate the amount of rest I lack when i'm fucking alive.

All I want is a guy who won't flirt with other girls,

who won't give unnecessary attention to other girls,

who can make his words count,

who is faithful,

who can make me feel secured,

who can make me feel that much more important and that less inferior.

Too much to ask for?
I guess so.

Welcome to reality,

where you deal with shit your whole life and die with it.

In life only one thing is guaranteed,

death.

In life you can only trust one person,

yourself.

Scratch that,

sometimes you can't even trust yourself.

Only reason why it hurts is because I care too much.

Maybe I shouldn't.

If you like the attention from those girls or their fucking words for you, so be it.

Talk to me when they can show that they love you more than I do through fucking actions.

Otherwise, all fuck off.

I can ask those guys to fuck off, no reason why you can't.

If you can't, then seriously, you can go join those girls interested in you.

All fuck off together.

Don't even fucking bother to think twice bout my thoughts already because like i've said,

I've reached my fucking limits.

love.

2012-01-16T00:56:00.003+08:00

Sucks to be jealous every other second,

because that just shouts,

"you're insecured."

love.

2012-01-15T01:44:00.008+08:00

Hello people, remember these times?

Weekly sentosa trip!

Birthday celebrations! This was jx's.

Henry's.

Norm's.

Boo's.

Random photo in class.

Random retarded times.

Again, haha.

The effects of a rushed photo from a stupid passerby.

Lepak times at panjang.

After och at changi beach.

At shisha, when we all lied about our age then.

And zejajnhjasc!

Since then everyone moved on,

and everyone changed.

For better, for worse.

There are so many times that I start missing those days.
When I look at the old photos,

when I randomly see these people on the streets,

when I see a huge clique hanging around,

when I see a huge group split into small groups,

when I see internal conflicts in those cliques.

Somehow I never regretted those days even though things didn't really end nicely.

And right now I guess I am the only person who still hopes that we still had those days,

when everyone are already leading their own lives happily.

Thank god we had the habit of snapping pictures all the time,

at least there's still something that I can look at and remind myself that those times were real,

and at all those moments,

we were all happy.

love.

2011-11-29T09:50:00.004+08:00

Woah, last night's post is really a mad short-fused post.
Stacked up stress really does no one any good. zz.
Got quite pissed with the comparison thing,
but i'd get pissed anyway if this happened in any other situation.

I also didn't really make a big fuss about your short replies,
(except for the ONE time I mentioned about it)
much less expect you to change.
The comparison got me damn fired up solely BECAUSE
whoever-that-was said it was okay from the start then kpkb about it later on.
For me it was never okay but I chose to accept it,
but accepting it really doesn't mean that I can't feel unhappy bout it.
Let's be honest here, I am quite irritated with it.
The only reason why I refuse to say anything is because it was my choice to be with you from the start and therefore I have to accept the way you are, good or bad.
I can only tell you what I like or don't like,
what follows after is your choice.

If you think i'm not reasonable or still thinks that I am the same as your ex after this,

then I have nothing to defend myself, suit yourself.

The day kicked off on quite a bad note.
Took a cab to school.
Taxi Uncle: Go where?
Me: RP.
TU: Huh?
Me: Republic poly.
TU: Republic poly say republic poly lah, rp.
WOAH, don't blame me for your stupidity man asswipe.

love.

2011-11-28T22:48:00.004+08:00

Worst messages replies:
"-.-" <- top hated face.
"Lol."
"Diao."
"Haha"
"zz"
"Okay."

The winner?
"K."

ANNOYING WAY OFF FUCKING CHARTS.

10000 words message and 1 word message gets the same reply,
short.
So why do I bother.

RULE OF THUMB: The reciprocal rule.
I'm really just gonna reply by how people reply me.

And honestly.
I don't see why on earth does it take five dinosaurs to die before I get a fucking short reply.
EG, "OKAY."

Mad angst, tolerance for short replies and long waits have offically sunk down to negativity.
GOD.

OKAY I DON'T EVEN WANNA BOTHER TRYING TO ORGANISE MY THOUGHTS,
IAMFUCKINGPISSED.

BYE.

P/S: Woah, mad short-fused post.
Stacked up stress really does no one any good. zz.
Got quite pissed with the comparison thing,
but i'd get pissed anyway if this happened in any other situation.

I also didn't really make a big fuss about your short replies,
(except for the ONE time I mentioned about it)
much less expect you to change.
The comparison got me damn fired up solely BECAUSE
whoever-that-was said it was okay from the start then kpkb about it later on.
For me it was never okay but I chose to accept it,
but accepting it really doesn't mean that I can't feel unhappy bout it.
Let's be honest here, I am quite irritated with it.
The only reason why I refuse to say anything is because it was my choice to be with you from the start and therefore I have to accept the way you are, good or bad.
I can only tell you what I like or don't like,
what follows after is your choice.

love.

2011-11-23T01:11:00.003+08:00

Some people are so materialistic it's scary.
It's not like we didn't know,
it's just that when you suddenly realise that one of your friend is like that it gets scarier.

There are some people who are like that,
when they have no one, they find you.
When they have others, you're no one.
It's like your existence vanished into dust all of a sudden.
Worst of all is those people who only find you when they need help and ignore you at all other times or when you need help.
Dude, fuck off.
The space in my life can be vacant for someone else more important and worthy to keep.

Speaking of friends,
I realise that the only girlfriend that I find worthy to keep is Shihan. :)
We may not contact as often as any other bestfriends do,
but there's a certain assurance that we'll be there for each other no matter what.
Another bunch of girlfriends I have is my primary school sistas.
Kinda watch each other grew up and these are the people who really accept me for who I am.

I'm a person with very little girl-bestfriends.
I have plenty of girl-friends, fun to hang out with, just no one that I bother to keep too close.
Why?
One, most will just find other bestfriends after awhile.
You're out of the game.
Two, they fuck you behind your back.
You'll see the ugliest side of people once they get comfortable with you,
but most people, especially girls, won't say it in front of you.
You know what bestfriends do?
They fuck you in your face, not behind your back.
Three, after awhile you'll realise that they don't really treasure the friendship afterall.
Happens in a lot of friendships because they found new friends.
Four, they have the most fucked up moodswings ever.
I'm not saying that I don't have it,
but please, control, don't act like the whole world owes you something.
I realise what Shihan and I do is that we usually bitch it out,
instead of lashing it out at each other or giving each other cold shoulder.

People come and go in your life.
There are some people who are there but honestly they don't deserve to be.
Specifically people who take you for granted,
or do/say things without knowing their limits.
Maybe it all boils down to acceptance,
but nah not for me, can't accept shit like that.

Friends are not for benefits,
because if you only find friends for benefits,
you'll never have true friends.

On a very random note,
I feel that some people are so good at drawing attention to themselves.
But because they make it a habit,
it seems natural that they're trying to attract attention.
You know what pisses me off the most?
When people perceive this kind of people as those who gets attention of people easily.
Hell of a fuck, they're just habitual attention seekers.
Please do those people who attracts attention easily because of certain charisma some justice and learn how to fucking differentiate, don't degrade them man. :)

Gosh, the world is seriously full of sickening people.
But that's good too,
because without sickening people like that people won't appreciate the good ones around them.
Well of course there are people who choose the sickening ones over the good ones,
all I can say to such people is,
hope your eyes grow soon. :)

love.

2011-11-21T21:56:00.002+08:00

I think it's really not easy to speak coherently while trying to hold back your tears.
There are many things that we can tolerate,
but people gradually get tired and there will be this day when we finally explode.
Today was kinda that day, not really explode but I kinda expressed a little overboard.
Fucking upsetting. Sigh.
Shall continue this on tumblr/private blog or something. :/

That being said,
it's not like i'm giving up or anything.
You're one thing and actually the only thing that I ever held on so hard to,
and I don't intend to let go anytime at all,
because I don't wanna regret,
and I don't wanna lose you.

All I ask from you,
is for you to not give up..

P/S: What a dayyy.

love.

2011-11-17T00:58:00.005+08:00

Things that come too easily are and will always be taken for granted.
Why? Simple.
Things that come easy, it's just perceived as something that's there no matter what.
Things that don't, you work hard for it.
Difference being when you know you worked hard for it,
it's just natural to treasure it more.

Everyone's the same.
They worked hard for something before,
and they've had things that come easily before.
Same logic applies to people.
There are people who work hard to get us,
people that we work hard for to get,
people who we can get easily,
and people we make ourselves easily available to.
I've been in all four situations before,
and the worst feeling of all,
is making ourselves available to someone who don't work as hard to keep you as compared to when they're trying to get someone or trying to keep someone they've worked hard for to get.

It's the priority and option thing again,
"don't make someone a priority when you're only an option."
Think of your efforts, mathematically.
What is the reciprocal of one,
and what's the reciprocal of two?
I think this proves something,
and this really applies for relationships.
Put in your full effort,
and you'll get back the same in return.
Put in too much,
you'll get back less,
because the remaining is taken for granted.

Back to what I was saying.
Think about it.
How do you treat the people that you worked hard for to get,
and how do you treat the people that's just there for you?
Sudden realization, no?

At the end of the day,
it doesn't matter how you start,
it's about how you finish.
Things you work hard for aren't necessarily better than things that come easy,
and things that come easy can go as easily as well.
People that make themselves easily available for you is called a privilege,
because while they are easily available for you,
there are a lot more other people outside working hard to get them.

Regardless of whoever, whatever,
the most important thing is to treasure.
If you don't know how to treasure,
doesn't matter if it's easy or hard to get,
you'll still lose it anyway.
Don't lose something,
then regret not treasuring.

Because by then it'll be all too late,
and I know that feeling all too well.

"Drown in happiness, not dwell on regrets."
By me. :)

love.

2011-11-14T22:06:00.005+08:00

I don't know if you feel the same,
but I am honestly very happy being with you.
There may be some minor squabbles every now and then,
but which relationship won't have?

I'm not perfect, you're not, our relationship is not,
but it's okay, because nobody and nothing is.
A relationship doesn't need to be perfect to last,
it requires effort, lots of it.

Today's incident really served as a wake-up call, I guess.
There are many things that we know we need and should do,
but we just keep piling up excuses to avoid it.
Time to do what we should do.

A little goes a long way,
and I believe that this,
is just one of the many sacrifices.
There will be many more,
and I am 100% sure that i'm ready for it because you're worth it.

We planned so much for the future,
so let's make it happen.
I believe that this relationship can lead to something better,
so let's not make this a regret.
If we manage to keep putting in effort to sustain this relationship,
I am sure all the plannings will eventually become reality.

I can't promise you happily forever after,
can't promise you that I won't fuck up,
can't promise that I will be perfect,
can't promise you that this relationship will proceed smoothly without obstacles.

I can only promise you,
that no matter how many obstacles there are,
I am always ready to face them with you.
I can promise you,
when you need me, i'll always be here.
I can promise you,
I will never stop trying to keep this relationship going,
and I hope you won't too.

I love you,
I won't give up on you,
and I am here to stay. :)

P/S: I'm really no good when it comes to expressing myself verbally,
everytime I wanna say something they always end up choked in my throat.
Sorry. :/

love.

2011-11-10T00:16:00.003+08:00

Motherfucking awkward shit manz.
Being the dick I have always been,
I was at duapui's formspring and wanted to disturb her.
SO I TYPED.
"who do you like?"
THEN AT THIS POINT OF TIME.
My comp fucked me over by switching tabs on its own,
and so the question was at another person's formspring,
and then I didn't realise the tabs were switched,
and the question was sent.

Here's where things get better,
that guy is a mutual friend of a few of my friends,
someone that a few people don't like,
and someone who was interested in me before.

And here's the best part.
I didn't ask the question anonymously.
SINCE IT WAS DUAPUI WHY SHOULD I ASK ANONYMOUSLY RIGHT.

Point being.
Fmfuckingl.
I deleted my formspring cos it's way too fucking embarrassing. -.-

Anyway.
First month was good,
movie at townnn,
but I think first year will be better.
HOHO. :)

love.

2011-11-07T00:45:00.002+08:00

Happy first month love!
With many many more to go (hopefully)! :)

i loveee you! <3

love.

2011-11-04T23:23:00.002+08:00

Do you keep walking or do you turn back,
when you know that the place you left from,
is actually the safest place to be.

Feels like sometimes you don't even care at all,
tedious but holding on regardless.
It's really annoying how people gradually raise their expectation over time,
uncontrollably.

When crying is your only escape,
you learn that at the end of the day,
you're still alone.

Mentally drained.
Caught in a chokehold.
Overwhelming, overwhelming.

love.

2011-11-02T10:48:00.002+08:00

Blogging in class, WOOPWOOPZ.
Damn boring, muscle muscle muscle.

I have like, a thousand and one cravings at the moment.
These cravings sparked off from a simple discussion of..
Prata.
Bad move bad move I AM DAMN HUNGRY NOW.
Avalanche in my freaking stomach and it's embarrassingly loud.

I wanna go itacho. :(
Oooomg.
Pink brunch at Equinox,
Lunch at 7ate9,
dinner at Triple3.
BAGUS LA!
Got money then say seriously LOL.

Actually I just wanna go town and eat the noodles at taka LOL.
Then go isetan supermarket and paragon's supermarket WHA sian. :(:(
Town town town!! Damn long never go. TT

18th go powerhouse!
Hais.
Starting I said I won't club,
I said I want a boyfriend who don't club,
I said I don't like club.
NOW LEH.
I go club with my boyfriend. Jialat.

NO I still seriously don't like the idea and I refuse to swallow back my words.
So I will not go club with friends UNLESS situations occur,
LIKE friend's birthday.

AIYA sua, don't want think.
I am damn hungry and I am going to eat. :)

love.

2011-10-27T00:19:00.004+08:00

Midnight deep in thoughts session with myself.
Sometimes I really dread midnights,
mood is always down in the pits because my brain works non-stop,
but its just sometimes.
Thank god it's not today.

Need to change for the better,
like expressing myself and anger management.
Sometimes I really think I need to attend anger management courses,
and need to learn how to speak up,
and at the same time learn how to not do both together. -_-

Need to pick up the habit of sleeping earlier, seriously.

Need to slim down, this one no joke.

Jealousy level must maintain abit.

Come to think of it actually alot of things needa change.
Holy cow.

Still pretty blissful so blissful feeling please don't end.
When I think far into the future I can really see things working out,
so.. things beyond my control I shall just hope that it will happen.

Is my age catching up with me or is it just me.
Feel like i'm at the age where planning for the future seems too far yet there really isn't much time to waste.
Thoughts are freaking disorganised and contradicting.

On a side note it feels good to be able to trust someone,
that's until the trust is lost due to certain factors but that's not up to me to decide.

Okay since the future is unpredictable,
it's about treasuring the things that you have now. :)

Just re-read the whole post wtf it's bloody choppy sia,
but whatever sighhh.
Shall tumblr for awhile and off to bed.
Goodnight. :)

p/s: i love you. ^^

love.

2011-10-03T22:42:00.002+08:00

Hate situations that I can't do anything,
except just to stand wait.

Sigh. :(

love.

2011-09-20T03:42:00.000+08:00

Warning tan go thailand liao,
like abit sian lah you mei you.

PH likga fun I wanna goooo.
Maybe soon maybe soon. Hehe.
Then Sunday morning sieh tired, last warning.
Maintain face, knn laugh non-stop fucking tiring.

Met girl, ahlao and loon last night!
Been abit long ah.
Ahlao fucking grand entrance shuffle one wu bo. LOL.

Today at home likga sian?!
Talked to aunty for like, 30 minutes.
Felt much much better afterthat. :)
Sometimes things ah, must slowly.
顺其自然 know! Also don't know correct anot chinese abit cui liao.

Tomorrow, or rather later, meeting april pam dion des!
Going to one altitude. :)
But that will be at night so I guess i'll burn my noon sleeping.

I AM HAPPY AND FREE GOODNIGHT! :)

love.

2011-09-17T02:01:00.001+08:00

大家好!
我是陈石,
我的搭档是陈警告! :)
New name new name.
陈石bodoh, nice bo.

Warning tan = shidi btw.
New name lah I think one, steady bo.
This few days been meeting warning tan quite alot ah,
best company ever siolx.
Go clementi, go aunty's place, go tiong(no joke), go alot place lah buaytankz.
Yesterday went to town to buy shoes and dress! :)
Damn shiok retail therapy ftw.
Then meet warning and angela eat kimkueyz.
Then cabbed to aunty's place.
Drank abit, abit more than abit lah abitzzz.
No joke sia last warning never eat like 3 days then drink.
Then warning sieh sweet lah take care of me all, thanks lah hor warning tan.

Morning came back to my place with warning,
whole night never sleep sia me. :(
Morning come back also never sleep,
bathe already then went down lot one makanz.
He keep doing the uh uh siol action for the whole of these two days, MAINTAIN MAX.
Afterthat this cute boy go back cos actually meeting friend,
in the end tio pangseh.
End up? We meet at tiong.
Woodlands to tiong is abit no joke lah, yi dian dian er yi.
Watched FD5.
BULLSHIT LIKE NO JOKE SIA I SWEAR.
Don't like bodoh, sieh lame.

After movie lepak awhile,
knn the tan joke, stop it sial.
Aiyah nobody understands what i'm talking about BUT I KNOW.
Afterthat we play game while walking to my bus stop,
cannot say maintain, abit, last warning, tan, sometimes, no joke and can only speak in chi and eng.
Last warning broz, this one stress tan max.
Forfeit also okay la, hump pole 5 times and do 3 pushups in the middle of nowhere only mah.
I wish I did the forfeit lah, I really wish you know. LOL.
Now got new joke sia,
vision. Buaytankz max.

On a very random note,
"love me gao gao until buaytankz kind",
this one, really maintain abit lah please. LOLOL.

I also quite maintain bodoh,
never sleep for 40 hours,
CHAMPION TAN.

WARNING TAN NEXT WEEK GOING THAILAND LAH,
LIMPEHZ SIEH SAD LAST WARNING YOU KNOW BROZ. :(

love.

2011-09-04T00:36:00.005+08:00

I am a fucking tanker.

Woke up at 9 yesterday to meet Duapui and Lynette at cine, at 1030. -_-
But was late cos had to clean my dog first.
Duapui's shirt was ironic to the max.
She always complain that her life sucks fuck life and shit,
guess what does her shirt say?
"LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL"
Of course it is.

Had pepper lunch for lunch(ha ha ha) while waiting for lynette.
She was damn late like 1ish!!
Caught Glee Concert Movie at 1.25.
WAS FREAKING GOOD HAHAHA I'm gonna start watching glee.
Had churros and blizzard after the movie,
omggg heaven.
Then we shopped around for abit before I left them to meet Sh they all! :)

Shisha @ Nabins with Shihan, her bf, swt and father. :)
Met swt, father and chenyi at ion first.
Then went down to Bugis.
Afterthat Chenyi left then we went down to Nabins.
Shidi came around 9 to find me,
cos he thought I with two couples then want come pei me.
Wha sieh sweet y'know.
But in the end he know not two couples already still came down anyway,
WHA SIEH SWEET x2 Y'KNOW. :D
Swt and father left quite early, like 10?
So in the end it was really with one couple. LOL.

Left Nabins around 11.30?
Was damn ex, $121.
Then mad sian Bugis no more bus back to woodlands.
We took bus down to city hall then mrt back to woodlands.
Fucking tiring shit no joke sia.

Went to get some alcohol at Woodgrove 7-11 and we slacked the whole night.
Damn fun lah he fucking crazy LOL.
Talked about oldold times, wha huai nian siolxz.
Realised alot of things.
I know him 7 years ago,
he came to my old place before,
and the me 6 years ago made him sieh gek xim.
Wha rabak y'know. :(
But he abit old man lah no joke niam me alot and sieh worried for me,
likga father.

Moving on.

Went down to Bedok at fucking 6am to eat breakfast.
Damn sot. LOL.
Wanted to go eat taohuey at geylang one,
but by the time we reach Bedok fucking lazy already.
So ate there in the end.
Best part.
Eat finish already, we came back woodlands to slack. -_-
Send me all the way back siol,
sweet wu bo?

Played with di di for awhile,
nb my dog bully me one sia. :(
He listen to shidi more than listen to me, wha sieh pekcek LOL.
We finally slept at fucking 3 then woke up at 6 cos he had to go off.
Gayass never bath cannot sleep one, LOL jie pi max.

Anyway we both really ren lao already.
A lot of things last time can now cmi.
Last time ton few days also no problem,
now jitao is shag.
Last time shidi piggyback me no problem,
now jitao is jialat.
Last time I piggyback shidi confirm no problem,
now jitao is backbreak.
Sigh, old liao old liao.

Tanker buay tank liao,
goodnight.

P/S: wtf I read my old posts, sibeh no joke.
Shidi from last time sibeh sayang me already sia,
somemore from I so young that time till now,
seriously likga big bro.

SHIDI YOU FUCKING BESTTTTT LA,
<3 SI NI! :D

love.

2011-08-29T01:05:00.001+08:00

HAHAHA shit I look at slut's face I really cannot tank.
This kind of face also got people want, guys ah guys up standard abit please.
I think prostitutes deserve more respect than slut man really.
At least they do something,
such as sacrificing themselves to prevent increasing crime rates.
And slut?
Do nothing but break people's family up and welcome everyone with open legs.

I still can remember someone saying it's just you got a big heart,
LOL more like big cb.

Omg damn funny wtf.
This issue used to be damn touchy and disgusting but now it's seriously,
damn good joke LOL.

STILL DISGUSTING THOUGH EEEEEE SLUT.
Your boyfriend got a big heart to accept your big cb sia.
RESPECT!

LOL I read my own post like some sec 2 kid flame people,
sibeh cute cannot tank myself alsho worx. xD

love.

2011-05-10T14:29:00.002+08:00

ANGST.

Okay this fucking issue been on my mind for quite some time already,
so menses said hi today and while on the cab home i've been thinking bout this issue.
It's not just one thing,
more like one thing that happened many times and everything really pisses the fuck out of me.

WHY THE FUCK IS THE WHOLE WORLD FUCKING COMPARING.
You bloody little motherfuckers, shut the fuck up.
Who the fuck cares if someone is better than them.
One thing for sure NOT ME, BITCH.
So what if that person i'm being compared to is better than me?
You cannot fucking estimate the immensity of fuck in which I do not fucking give,
and don't fucking shit me with "so you can improve" "so you can learn from them".
Who the fuck said I want to improve and suddenly need a mentor to teach me shit,
even if I want to that is none of y'all's fucking business.
HOW ANNOYING CAN IT GET OH MY FUCKING GOD.
Quit comparing and start fucking realising everyone's different,
good and bad at different things.

Yes I am aware that I am fucking punctuating my sentences with fucks but I don't give a fuck,
and no I am not directing this at anyone but if you're guilty of it fuck yourself.
Don't make me start comparing you idiots with every fucking thing that exist.

If you have nothing nice to say then just shut up who the fuck wants to hear you anyway.
And if you feel fucking guilty after reading this you know what, you should fucking be.
Sorry doesn't help shit so if you wanna say sorry just keep it to yourfuckingself.
On a side note, I think aunty's right.
What's past is past, why bring it up, nobody's fucking interested.
Especially not me.

Okay i'm just really fucking pissed now goodnight.

love.

2011-04-14T01:39:00.002+08:00

I don't see how coming home late is an issue if I will definitely reach home safely.
Seriously, it's not like i'm outside doing illegal stuffs.
I know that you're worried but can you please accept the fact that I am also slowly growing and learning how to take care of myself already?

Chill out mommy.

love.

2011-03-22T12:20:00.002+08:00

You know what's the difference between you and I?
Things always come to me on their own while you should be glad that you even have things in your life. :D

Sorry bitching is a habit,
and also at the same time my talent.
Can't let it go to waste.

Going out with qin ai de to watch ghost soon! :)
Pathetic little me eating maggie mee knn sad life I lead.
Still hungry shall go out and buy food.

Tonight when I come home,
I will watch HIMYM.
I hope.

Goodbye. :)

love.

2011-03-22T00:12:00.003+08:00

Why hello. :)
Been in the best of mood lately and feeling really hungry too.
So one week is over,
no more big boss of the house. :( Dayum.

Have officially finished misfits,
put off the last episode for way too long.
Ended with my baby in the coffin, not so ideal.
Contemplating if I should watch misfits 2.
I think i'm gonna start watching fringe, criminal mind and all soon,
because even my mom started already and I thought I was the one with more time to spare.
TOO MUCH IS NEVER ENOUGH.

Meeting my beloved duapui on friday omggggggggg been so long,
too long too long. :'( emotional moment.

I need more shows to watch, before school starts.
Urgh omg orientation fucking puts me offfff.

HAHAHA OMG QIN AI DE THOUGHT PAT TOR YAO = DATING MEDICINE.
LOL RABAK.

Break up season everyone's breaking up and everyone's feeling sad,
looks like I've got tons of job on hand. :(
Nutnut alot happier so one job off hand. LOL. :X
But the other two likga emo only.

Hais.. childish..
why meddle with love at such a young age if you can't handle it? sigh.
-shakes head.

But then again, GEH GAN! :D
Teehee!

love.

2011-03-02T01:00:00.003+08:00

QIN AI DE AND NUTNUT KEEP LAUGHING AT ME,
what addicted to habbo cannot meh?!
GOT WRONG AH! ASK POLICE CATCH ME LA! :(

Met Shihan todayyy, finally!
Stupid girl wjmk like a rabak only,
or rather wlmk. :(
Seriously no best friend can be better than her sia.
She look at me, I look at her.
Then she say,
"your life sucks bodoh. But you zi zhao one, geh gan."
So nice, in this whole lifetime cannot find another best friend like that liao.

Omg looking at old blog posts damn addictive hehe.

Anyway afterthat went to eat at crystal jade with ahma and meimei,
then jiejie came to find us.
Brought meimei to school and fetched her back. Pfft.
Then qin ai de came woodlands find me! :):):):):)
WO HAO XIANG NI! :(
Went to gelare eat icecream waffle! Shiok!
Then had double cheeseburger! Wha damn hungry now.
Sat at the bus stop and ate our cheeseburgers. Hehe.
It was damn funny hahaha but I super tired lazy to elaborate.
Jiejie went off, then walked with qin ai de to the other bus stoppp.
Was at there for abouttttt, 45 mins then she went off. :(
Love all the bus stop moments, heheh.

Shoulders aching damn bad now. :(
Shall continue go look at my old posts, then go to sleep.
Tonight is a good night,
goodnight! :)

love.

2011-03-01T03:46:00.002+08:00

"What's worst than being upset is not knowing how to express it.
Causing you to face it all alone."

If I wasn't already used to this I might think that this is really sad.
Sucks not being able to express yourself because:
1. you're gonna have to deal with it alone.
2. it's those who are able to express themselves, be it true thoughts or just statements to gain sympathy, who get all the comforting words and attention.

Probably time to look around and notice all the 'happy' people around you,
maybe they're the ones who are really suffering.

love.

2011-02-28T22:49:00.002+08:00

Miserable at best then vanilla twilight then now superhuman.
My itunes is totally connected to my brain.
Don't know what you're doing to me with your love~

I was sleeping my life away happily,
then I suddenly heard someone shouting my name from my window WHICH SHOULDN'T BE HAPPENING.
So I thought I was dreaming,
in my 'dream' I responded.
Turns out my sister was at my window shouting at me to open the door.
SLEEP DEPRIVED IS MY NEW NAME.

Went to xin wang and I swear idk if it's the mood or what but I binge like mad.
Had my char siew noodles, one whole bowl of soup, har gao, siew mai, ice jelly.
Then went to arcade play para jiejie ask me I stress ah, LOL.
Sun plaza was way too boring so we went back to causeway point.
Felt hungry again.
Went to crystal jade,
eat har gao siew mai and porridge. :D
Eat finish went to buy bread then we ate on the way back to my place.
Then we went to jog! And then went to swim afterthat.
Hahaha we're so healthy. :)
Then we went to eat double cheeseburger.
I'm hungry againnn.

Mood is down in the pits, too much thoughts for my little braaain.
Relationships are not something we can handle alone because it takes two hands to clap,
but we can always react to it differently.
Why do we reject definite happiness and take riskkkkkks.
Okay shall not bore you with my thoughts,
I shall bring my thoughts somewhere else~
Byebye.

P/S: 我今天, 好想好想你. :(
-心碎! :(:(:(:(:(

love.

2011-02-28T01:30:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna start watching numb3rs soon!
And maybe glee, maybe.
But we can decide bout this after I finish misfits. :)

Dinner with the cousins today.
Not really my cousins LOL as in like ah yi's cousins BUT WHATEVER,
THE COUSINS.
Wanted to have dinner at Xin Wang but they totally refused.
In the end we settled dinner at Manhattan's! :D
Cheryl and I were damn chillax discussing about some people,
like it was supposed to be angry but we were just chillax-talking bout it. LOL.
Okay maybe it's not that angry but if I think about it alone i'll get damn pissed.
We left around 9-ish. ~

Short but eventful night.
Saw an old friend an plaza sing,
was happy till I remember we're not even on talking terms now.
Still managed a hi though.
Then took a bus back to pending.
Helped a blind girl to the lrt station,
felt damn good about myself cause I helped someone. :)
Then I saw the hdb in front of station on fire while I was at my bus stop,
then I saw rachel on the bus. LOL.

I'm having problem trying to keep my eyes open.
GG.
I think albino animals are so pretty and coatimundi quite cute.

P/S: No matter how hard this path will be i'll always walk it with you.
I won't leave you anymore, not now, not soon, not ever.
We'll make many many new memories, a whole lifetime of memories.
In your future i'll always be there, so be there in my future too okay? ♥

love.

2011-02-27T16:54:00.007+08:00

I totally believe you and I really believe that's not what I think because I am soooo dumb. :D

WHY LIE TO ME EPS 14 IS NOT OUT YET.
DAMN IT!
Gonna continue watching misfits while waiting for eps 14 to be out.
Or maybe I shall go and bathe and just leave house earlier
because it's frustrating to be here now.

Two things to say.
1. I suppose you already know this, I know what you think and yes that means I know what that number means.
2. Is it really right to be like this when you're with someone? If your answer is yes then maybe it's time to take my feelings into consideration. Maybe you should have took more time to sort out your thoughts.

love.

2011-02-27T01:31:00.003+08:00

RP enrolment letter came in,
surprise surprise. my foot.
I seriously wanted to fill the forms up and all,
then I gave up after writing my name oh my fucking god.

Thoughts of orientation officially fucked my brain,
cause my mind is blank to the max now.
Mood is always on extreme ends nowadays,
and the urge to do things is seriously off the charts man.
Not good not gooood!!!

Met qin ai de and nutnut today. :D:D
Went to Penin, walked 4764736134798632 rounds.
Then went to cityhall then suntec then marina.
Finally had soup today! @souperlicious YAY.
Seriously need to stop spending money like money drop from the sky. :(
Had Auntie Anne's pretzel too yay!!!
Food makes me happy. Happy happy. :D
THEN WE HAD DINNER AT XIN WANG! YAY.
I really cannot write in details what happened today,
but I had fun nonetheless. :3

I'M, TOO SEXY FOR MY LOVE.
TOO SEXY FOR MY LOVE LOVE'S GOING TO LEAVE. ~
Hahaha this song seriously funneh I like.

love.

2011-02-26T00:55:00.003+08:00

We're on oovoo every night and yes it's always like that.
Both of them using phone and me just wanting to point that finger.
I DID IT. :)

You've got the looks that's impossible~
-dies.

Fucking slept with my webcam on last night,
WORST CHOICE IN THE UNIVERSE.
Worse than eating shit malu to the max. :(:(:(
Nutnut and qin ai de keep laughing at me,
wo bu xiang huo le.. :(

Met sissy today.
Son of a bitch pulled me to admiralty then to shatec then to expo.
ADMIRALTY AND SHATEC = TOTALLY WASTE OF TIME URGH.
OH and is it just me or is it that when you go in to some place unfamiliar you get dizzy?
As in like, unfamiliar offices or rooms.
Okay maybe it's just me.

Went to Borders fair at expo.
Was so tempted to buy everything but the queue makes you not feel like buying anything,
even if gold bars were going at 10 cents.
The queue was like those normal snake-like queue at the counters,
so it was like around 5 folds and then it stretched all the way out.
AND BY ALL THE WAY OUT I MEAN THE BLOODY PARAMETERS OF THE ROOM.
Everyone had like BASKETS of books,
if I went to queue I swear I would've just died cause the world probably ended before I make my payment.
Freaking gave up and didn't even bother to go and look at the other fairs,
although 70% and 90% discounts are mad temptations but no I am not fucking gonna queue.

Afterthat we went to airport!
For dinner.
I feel like a pig today.
I had sushi and sashimi around 5ish.
Then had popeyes at 7ish.
Then went to buy bread.
Then went to candy empire and bought the whole store.
Then went to eat at xin wang at 9ish because I got hungry again.
AND I ATE LIKE HUGE PORTIONS way more than what I eat usually.
At popeyes I had 2pcs chicken meal with coleslaw with fries with large mash and had extra drumlets.
At xin wang I had char siew noodles and mango sago with pomelo.
And I am going to eat bread now. :):)

Tomorrow meet nut and qin ai de! YAY!
Can never get sian of meeting themmm. :3

Jiejie can't stop yakking bout her ******.
MA DE hear until sian!
Omg~~~ Omg~~~ Omg~~~
One day don't know want to say how many times.
Buay tahan la!

P/S: My thinking won't change won't change won't change!
Not now not next time not ever,
because you are worth it and that is the best reason for me to hold on. :)

love.

2011-02-24T07:11:00.005+08:00

Opinions only matter if they're made by the people who matter.
If they don't matter don't let their opinion affect you because chances are they don't either.
I think my new principle should be mind over matter,
I don't mind and you don't matter.

POINT BEING ain't no bitches bringing me down yawww,
and no i'm not gonna put myself down either.
Only reason why people wanna bring you down is because you're above them,
so if anyone tries to bring me down I swear i'm gonna stomp your head flat.
If people tell you you can't make it,
don't waste time being upset, prove them wrong.
Words are fucking free so really,
shut up and do it.
Anyone can say shit but not everyone can do it. :D

Leave the past as it is cause that's how it should be.
Relationship isn't about getting into one,
it's about maintaining one.
You can get into a relationship with anyone,
but the only relationship you'd put effort in to maintain is with that someone.
Actually end of the day is just trying your best and not regretting,
cause if the whole thing flops at least you know you tried your best,
and that could very well be the only consolation.

It's currently 7.23am,
you know I am deep when I can churn a post like this out even when i'm not fully awake.
MAN AM I DEEP.
So much confidence first thing in the morning,
please be like this everyday all the time.
BECAUSE IT FEELS MAD GOOD and damn right I like it! :D
You emokiddos should talk to me in the morning,
I have 10001 inspirational quotes at the back of my head like now.

Meeting qin ai de later,
going to Clarke Quay. :)
Later someone go ba ya hahaha!
Don't scared lah okay! Not scary de. :D
&omg, been so long since the last time I went to CQ.
MEIDI-YA first thing that came to my mind heheh.
Right now I wish for that red ugly thing on my nose to be gone,
and no it's not a zit.

FOR PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY SHOWN SUPPORT THANK YOU.
Y'all have no idea how much it means to me when shit tries to pull me down.
FOR THOSE PEOPLE WHO DOESN'T SUPPORT BUT STILL LOVE ME ALL THE SAME,
yes sistas I am totally referring to you guys specifically duapui and lynette,
I LOVE Y'ALL TOO. :)

TALKED TO MALAY LAST NIGHT,
telling him how I feel shitty and all.
Convo went like.

Me: IDK no one approves of it. :(
Malay: im okay with it.
but then again.
im no one.
so I approve.

You're the only person that make me face reality and let me live in my dreams.
SO THANK YOU MALAY. C:

I'M GONNA BE POSITIVE NOW ON,
SO FOR YOU DICKS WHO WANNA SEE ME DEPRESSED AND SHIT BETTER LUCK NEXT TIME. :)
You are so trusting it's annoyingly cute,
freaking epitome of innocence, of a teenager. Hahaha.

I AM SERIOUSLY TOO POSITIVE ON A MORNING LIKE THIS LOL.
Quite annoying.
GOOD BYE. :3

EDITED/}
It's 11.11 now!
No i'm not wishing for anything at this time,
I just make it a point to tell my most beloved person "i love you". :)
Met qin ai de today.
Went to Clarke Quay,
finally went to Meidi-ya again.
Then walked from Clarke Quay to Fullerton to Esplanade,
wanted to go helix bridge but someone lazy!
ROMANTIC ye bu hui shuo romantic dao na li qu but hai hao lo.
HAHA.
Joking! Every second with you also romantic,
even if it's not i'm still happy that I got to spend time with youuu. :)
OH AND I HAD PEPPER LUNCH FOR DINNER(irony much) TODAY.
And I never vomit hahaha feel LIKE A BOSS.

Slept on the MRT, bad idea.
Woke up to abdominal pain and blurred vision.
Making my way home was never so tough before,
was practically dragging my feet home.
And yes it still hurts now and I am fucking hungry now.

NUTNUT PLEASE DON'T BE SAD.
I don't know how to help you because "chill" "relax" and "don't sad" are damn fucking useless words,
BUT I DON'T WANNA SEE YOU SAD!
Anything must say out okay,
we two will always be here for you forever! :D
Remember what I say hor,
don't quit 5 minutes before the miracle.
AND the whole list on my private blog you also must remember kay! :D

P/S: I wanna be with you no matter what other people say.
I'm not going to let others discourage me any further,
so don't let the words of other affect you too okay?
This is our relationship, not theirs,
promise we'll make this work out this time round! :)
I love you. ♥
AND, 100 kisses ah you better don't forget! :D

love.

2011-02-23T22:07:00.002+08:00

Okay today wasn't that bad afterall.
Nutnut came to find me,
for like 5 minutes cos some idiot take bus take until don't know where.
LOLOL. :X
Then nutnut don't know how to share umbrella one can!!!
Ma de in the end my shirt wet wet! :(
Afterthat qin ai de came to find me! :D
Stupid migraine attacks make me damn soft,
like boneless kinda soft.
Vertigo to the maxxx.

Qin ai de and nutnut damn bad,
keep laughing at my nose just cause I put plaster.
Cannot put plaster meh, got wrong ah?!?! :(
Then qin ai de around 9ish leave!
Wait for bus till like 9.30 cause we talktalktalk then miss two buses. Heh.
QIN AI DE I MISS YOU ALREADY CAN! :(
Tomorrow ba ya liao, hahaha!!!
Omg aunty just called me,
hahaha bei ma again couldn't recognize her voice and i lost her number.
Oppppps.

Why is everyone so practical?
It's fine if you are just don't shove your idea to me okayyy.
Yesyes we're all grown up now but that doesn't mean I can't do what I deem right,
although it isn't really.
When it comes to relationships I don't think anything is an issue actually.
Isn't being happy the most important thing in life?
I'm happy so be happy for me instead of preaching.
I wanna hear words like "last long!" or "good for you!" instead of having to answer questions non-stop.
Don't bring me down because i'm not a very secured person from the start. :(
I AM NOT IGNORANT OR IMMATURE,
i'm just being myself, being happy and at the same time planning how the future can be.
If there's no road to take, then create one. :)
Of course this road won't be an easy one,
I already know it from the beginning so long ago,
which means I know what i'm getting myself into!
Or have already got myself in. :)

P/S: I wanna hold your hand, look at the stars with you,
talk about old times, have childish arguments, laugh with you,
hug you, and kiss you with tomato and garlic flavoured lips.
Only with you, and for the rest of my life! :)

love.

2011-02-23T14:33:00.004+08:00

I KINDA SORTA THINK THAT "BIMBO" AND "BITCH" ARE COMPLIMENTS.
See, bimbo is someone who's attractive but dumb.
Coincidentally I am always comparatively smarter than those who calls me bimbo,
that makes me attractive and not dumb! :)
So if you happen to be one of those who sees this,
reflect on your intelligence before you open your mouth and call me a bimbo okay? :D
But of course if you useless brain fails to tell you that you're too dumb to call others bimbo,
just go ahead and thank you for the compliment.

BITCH.
C'mon lah if you call me a bitch you obviously cannot stand me,
because my intelligence or insults are too overwhelming for you too handle.
And idk my bitch makes bitch sounds like a good thing from the start.
So if you call me a bitch thank you for that too. :D

I am super tired today.
Thanks to my migraine my 'tired cycle' is back.
Shittt I don't want,
I don't want to spend the whole day sleeping everyday. :(

Staying home the whole day today.
Shall go and watch my lie to me, then watch some spongebob. :D
Oh actually maybe i'm going to meet nutnut.
For an hour or so LOL.
Can shun bian go causeway buy sashimi.
I don't care if i'm gonna die from it I AM EATING IT. :)

Next week meeting qin ai de mon, wed, fri! :D
tues and thurs still no plan but will have one soon.
Hiakhiak.

OMG and I recently went to check about migraine right.
Here are like all the effects of it.

food cravings
constipation or diarrhea
mood changes: depression, irritability, etc.
muscle stiffness, especially in the neck
fatigue
increased frequency of urination
headache pain that is often hemicranial, or on one side (this pain can shift to the other side or become bilateral)
visual symptoms: flashing lights, wavy lines, spots, partial loss of sight, blurry vision
olfactory hallucinations (smelling odors that aren't there)
tingling or numbness of the face or extremities on the side where the headache develops.
difficult finding words and/or speaking
confusion
vertigo
partial paralysis
auditory hallucinations
decrease in or loss of hearing
reduced sensation
hypersensitivity to feel and touch

phonophobia - sensitivity to sound
photophobia - sensitivity to light
nausea and vomiting
diarrhea or constipation
nasal congestion and/or runny nose
depression, severe anxiety
hot flashes and chills
dizziness
confusion
dehydration or fluid retention, depending on the individual body's reactions
lowered mood levels, especially depression
or feelings of well-being and euphoria
fatigue
poor concentration and comprehension
lowered intellect levels

and yes I have all of em.
but lowered intellect levels.
SERIOUSLY?
Neuro save me I don't wanna be as retarded as some people. :(

I think i'm like on a puking spree but I think i'm getting fatter and fatter wtf.
I'm gonna binge on negative calorie food already.

P/S: You may not be the first but you'll definitely be the last,
and actually the fact that you'll be the last one for me has already been set since the last time,
it's just that we both failed to realize it but thank god fate pulled us back together.
And never will I let go of this ever againnn! :)

love.

2011-02-22T17:00:00.005+08:00

I decided to watch lie to me,
until I started reading Stewie's tweets.

LOL crack me up like shit.

Being the kind soul I am I shall not retweet everything,

I shall post em here.

Here goes. :D

"The more you watch Maury, the less your kids look like you."

HAHAHA this is fucking hilarious,

and I definitely won't be watching Maury's when I have kids.

"I wouldn't have an anger problem if you didn't have a stupid problem."

YES SO DON'T BLAME IT ON ME, DUMBFUCK. :D

"Hey whore, has your right leg met your left leg yet?"

HAHA SUITS YOU.

"TRUST ME! you DON'T wanna know what goes on in my head."

Yes i'll probably be screwed if my thoughts can be read. Opps.

"If I actually did live like there's no tomorrow, i'd be in jail by now!"

Yes I woulddd because the first thing i'll do is kill that disfigured thing.
I'm not referring to anyone for all of the above statements I swear,
except for disfigured thing YOU WERE DISFIGURED AND YOU STILL ARE. :D

Hahaha STEWIE LIGKA FUNNY. :D

Went to eat at Crystal Jade with jiejie just now! :)

It was good just that my stomach still refuse to co-operate with me.

Then had icecream waffle at Gelare.

Then had bread.

Then had egg.

Then had double cheeseburger. :):) fat si.

SI LE LA.

Now craving for so many things.

Xiaolongbao, sushi, uni, sashimi, FOOOOD. :(:(:(:(:(

I want desserts.

Ohhhh craving for bread also FOCCACIA.

Cheeeeese, camembert please.

I AM HUNGRYYY. :(

Mommy bought cheese bread,

I got custard cream bread and caramel bread. YAY!

My hair is super co-operative now,

so smooth and straight and SO IN PLACE.

Please be like that eveveveveveryday of my life~

I think i'll go and see a neuro soon.

I'm not comfortable knowing that blood vessels in my brain are expanding every now and then.

Some slut should die like now,

getting on my nerves.
I'm so glad to see you're miserable like that,
makes me feel that life is a whole lot fairer.

If you stalk me GOOD FOR YOU.

See this, and don't ponder this IS for you.

Choke on a dick and die whore. :)

Karma is a bitch,
and I am sure it'll catch up with me someday.
In actual fact it already did,
and it lingered around for quite some time.
Maybe it'll visit again next time i'm not sure,
BUT TILL THEN I'M QUITE SAFE BECAUSE KARMA STILL HAS A WHOLE LIST OF PEOPLE TO FIND.
One of which, you. :)

JUST LIKE HUN SAY, "I'm definitely going to hell."
KINDA MISS HOW HUN SAYS THAT AFTER SAYING SOMETHING MEAN ABOUT SOMEONE.
I think i'll have fun bitching about idiots even if that means i'm going down,
because my bitch will be down there waiting for me anyway HAHA.

P/S: 不管你是人是猪是牛是马是老鼠还是垃圾,
我最爱最爱最爱最爱的永远是你. ♥♥ :):):):):)

love.

2011-02-21T22:04:00.003+08:00

Met qin ai de at bugis today!
I swear my eyes couldn't open mad tired.
Thanks to Clifton cos he decided to talk to me when I was about to sleep,
yes I know you're thinking then just tell him you wanna sleep,
but no we started bitching or rather I did and bitching is not something you can get enough of.
Then we went to Clementi to find nutnut! :)
Stayed till 8 then qin ai de and I went off.
Decided that it was way too early to come home,
so went to panjang heheh.
Wanted to eat something but not something to solid,
THEN I SUDDENLY REMEMBER MY FISH SOUP omg my fave.
I can never live without soup. ~

Everytime I go panjang now I also miss old times. :(
Because that's like, where my whole secondary school life took place at. Hahaha.
Slacking, supper, lunch, dinner and every single shit.
I missssss Zejajnhjasc. :(
Lol I always miss 'em when I start looking at old pictures.
My sentosa trips, friday nights, midnight lepak and birthday celebrations. :(:(
Okay shall leave it at here, pfft.
:'(

Mood is slightly affected nowww, damn.

I suspect there's a pig stealing my marshmallow pebbles because ONLY HALF BOX OF IT IS LEFT.
Angst angst angst TOO ANGST.
I need to fucking chill why am I always so fucking unchill urgh.

And lol dude come on you never bothered to talk to me ever since then,
you were so busy being happy to care that i'm not fucking alright thanks to you.
So what the fuck on earth made you think that i'm gonna care if you are sad now?
You hope i'm happy, like now? DUDE YOU FOR REAL? URGH.
Suck this _l_
It's really not that i'm heartless,
but I really hate being used by people like nobody's business.

P/S: I PROMISE YOU I will never find new zhu ren again okay, (L).
You also cannot find new clothes ah,
cannot si xin bu gai! :(
Anddd.
Wo xian zai hen xiang hen xiang hen xiang hen xiang hen xiang niii.
Sigh. :(

love.

2011-02-21T00:12:00.003+08:00

Sissy came to my house and dragged me out today,
idiot keep eating my marshmallow pebbles. :(
Caught what woman wants,
it was not bad I guess.
After movie went for dinner. :)
On the way there she was MAD debating with me about her idea of love.
Then I remember what others told me last time,
and then I came to a conclusion that other than me everyone's idea of love is twisted.
Oink being himself told me, "love = sex".
You have let me down my friend, I thought you were normal.

So we debated about it until our butter chicken arrived.
It finally ended with, "I shall not talk with you our idea of love is not the same!"
Or so I thought because in the end the conversation continued at the bus stop.

I think my idea of love is 100000x more normal than everyone else's.
She's those kind that don't want her boyfriend to control her, at all.
And will purposely do/say things that her boyfriend don't like.
THAT IS DAMN TWISTED ARE YOU LOOKING FOR A RELATIONSHIP OR WAR?
AND if you don't want any commitment from the start why start a relationship man.

Mommers talked to me this morning and told me that i'll realise the impracticalities soon.
WHY IS IT NOT PRACTICAL?! :(
She broke my heart mannn,
bet Lyne and duapui are like looking at this and thinking, "good job mommers!"
Boo ya. :(

Oh and I saw Kerene's mommy today!!!
Was walking out of my house,
then I realise that this aunty was mad staring at me for damn long.
Then I decided to just ignore because I always get such stares every now and then.
Afterthat I stopped in front of her then I realised that it was her.
Before that I saw this kid in the pool,
I also didn't manage to realise that it was Issac until aunty told me. LOL.
She said I slimmed down, like YAY.
The last time she saw me she said that I put on weight, bummer. :(

Oovoo-ing with qin ai de and nutnut now! :)
Nutnut playing game qin ai de watching show.
I shall just rot and do nothing,
and actually if no one starts talking i'm gonna start reading my sherlock holmes,
which is an absolutely terrible idea because i'm gonna be damn engrossed in it to realise their existence once I start reading. Opps.
Okay on second thoughts, I shall just do that hehehe.
They are so lame that I feel like crying this instant,
nutnut just passed her phone to qad through oovoo.

SAAAAAAAAAYONARA.

P/S: I plan our future already!
You better don't po huai my plan ah.
We must earn alot of $$ and yi ming go aus one hor! :)

love.

2011-02-20T14:30:00.002+08:00

Went to Nex for the first time yesterday!
It was really huge but it feels like 10 causeway points together,
no posh feeling unlike vivo you know!
Met nutnut at woodlands then trained over to serangoon to meet qin ai de. :)
Went to party world hehehe.
Stayed for like 3 hours.
So after we were done it was only like, 5 ish.
Started roaming around,
and I bought my vitamin water and marshmallow pebbles at cold storage!!!
Can't believe I managed to find my marshmallow pebbles after so long,
touching moment.
(Hahaha shit my sister just arrived at my place i'm eating my marshmallow pebbles im supposed to bathe oh no)

We decided to catch no strings attached,
FUCKYEAHASHTONKUTCHER YOU KNOW.
We nua-ed at the sky garden,
there's this dog playground thing.
SMALL FURBALLS RUNNING AROUND SOOOO ADORABLE.
I want a pomeranian!!!!!
Show started at 9.50 and nex's theatre got leather seats wtf.
I don't like gimme back my furry chairs. :(

THE SHOW IS DAMN GOOD,
because Ashton Kutcher's innit and shows with him won't be bad.
He was naked with just a towel covering his dick. LOL.
He's fugggggging hot.
So after the show we went home, reached home bout 12.50.

Okay sissy's scolding the shit out of me.
Going to bathe!
Qin ai de confirm sleeping now cause never reply my message! :(
I'm going to bathe now,
probably with my marshmallow pebbles hehehe bye.

love.

2011-02-18T23:25:00.002+08:00

SO ABI LEFT. :(
Like all of us knew she was going off to study,
but it's like happening nao.
Okay but the time at airport was damn fun hahaha.
Been a long time since all 5 of us came together.
Ate at Astons.
I was blind today, Lynette was bai ka-ed, Jiya fell flat on the ground HAHA.
Shall elaborate on the story of Jiya falling flat on the ground.
So mommers being herself pushed the trolley and ran with it,
then she decided to slide with it,
then it went too fast so she needed to like stop it.
SO.
She stopped it,
but the pressure made it fell on the ground,
and she fell flat with it, SLOW MO.
Duapui lyne and I just stunned for like seconds and burst out laughing.
Mommers scurried away and left the freaking trolley there perpendicular to the ground with the four wheels up. LOL.
Shittt so many things happened within a short few hours,
damn funny.

We're so embarrassing,
but we've always been like that and I don't think that it's gonna change anytime soon.
YAY FOR SISTAS and 10 years friendship hiakhiak.
I think we have like ultimate telepathy because on the card we wrote for abi,
all of us mentioned "SUNDAY'S BRUNCH".
Dayum sunday brunches will never be the same man! :(

Been wanting to blog for a long time just that my laziness.. y'know the rest.
So vday was exceptionally good.
Wednesday was good.
Yesterday was good.
Okay actually everyday also not bad uhmmm.
My maid is going back tomorrow, sad max. :(
Going sing K tomorrow with qin ai de and nutnut.
YAY! But my voice is dying.

NUTNUT!
Bu yao emo okay.
Anything you still got the two of us,
even don't have that zhu still got me okay.
Don't think too much!
Happy abit.
You always make me happier so I want you to be happier as well!
NO EMO EMO OKAY?! :)

Okay i'm tireddd, so goodnight.

P/S: I love you! ♥♥
Four years ago, yesterday, today, tomorrow, four years later, forever. :)

love.

2011-02-18T16:19:00.001+08:00

So fucking tired,
physically and emotionally.
Don't even know where to begin with.

Just seriously wanna sleep forever,
not in an emo way though.

love.

2011-02-17T02:47:00.002+08:00

shitshitshit i seriously start spouting nonsense once i'm half drunk.
like the senses still work just that the side that don't work wins.
OMFG I should never ever ever ever ever ever be drunk,
I don't dare to imagine what will happen fuckkkkk.

I swear I won't fucking drink ten tons of beer again.
Like never ever.

I miss old times.

love.

2011-02-15T05:21:00.003+08:00

I suck at expressing myself.
Hahaha screw that I suck at expressing shit man.
LOL.

Totally hooked onto 'when life was good',
quite a wonder how sometimes songs speak your life story for you.

love.

2011-02-13T14:17:00.006+08:00

1460!
Hahaha that's the amount of days four years contain.
Not a very long period of time, also not a very short period of time either.
Many things changed, some stayed the same.
Like how four years ago I loved you and still do four years later. :)
Just that things isn't really the same,
because so many things happened in between.

I think it's pretty amazing how we end up together four years later,
at least my efforts didn't go down the drain.
I still wanna look back four years later,
see how things have changed,
but with you still with me.

I miss how things were then,
but no complaints about how things are now either.
At least I still have you,
and i'm not gonna bring my hopes up too high from here,
will try to keep expectations at zero, too.

On a side note,
kinda painful to realise that the person beside you have changed.
Feels so familiar, yet so distant.
Sad sad issue, dayummm.

I think i'm quite sick.
Like, you know I will purposely go and see things that I don't wanna see over and over again
just to get used to it.
Like how pain doesn't get pain once you get used to it.
Something like that.

I also think it's quite sad.
The story of how I lost trust towards human beings thanks to insignificant dicks.

MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN I should never stay at home alone.
I'll just engage in a deep long never-ending conversation with myself,
mostly about how sad my life is.

WHY DO WE ALWAYS LET OURSELVES BE THE CHOICES OF OTHERS?!
MAD ANGST.

Alright man!!!
My mood have just decided to plunge down and commit suicide.
Shit.

Oh my fucking god bye.

love.

2011-02-11T21:56:00.002+08:00

maybe at times i wonder what's going thru your mind.
but then again maybe i don't wanna know afterall.

i accept the past,
but i cannot deny that it affects me..

love.

2011-01-24T13:29:00.001+08:00

I think my life have too little happy moments.
I cried at the ending of Junior Masterchef.
EH, but I swear the ending damn happy.
So touching you know.

Need to go and bathe and go out soon,
if not later cock kpkb again.
-roll eyes.

love.

2011-01-23T01:24:00.002+08:00

Amazing how kids know food like tres leches, involtini, syllabub.
I think they live in kitchens.
Cassidy actually made millefeuille with creme pastissiere and strawberry coulis.
No recipe no shit.
I don't even know how to make millefeuille. hais.

Mindfucked.

love.

2011-01-22T17:17:00.002+08:00

I WOULD MARRY SAM AND PIERRE ANYTIME MAN HAHAHA.
Shit they can cook so damn well.
Actually jack is like fucking good too,
he made snail porridge like wooooow.
SAM'S EYES ARE SO PRETTYYY.
Hahaha this show is amazing.
They should have another version for teens.
MORE HOT GUYS HEHEHE.
If i'm a guy i'd totally marry siena or sofia without hestitation man.
Gorgeous kids.

Okay i'm gonna continue watching byebye.

love.

2011-01-22T03:10:00.003+08:00

Thought it's about time to update this dead space.
Before I start on anything,
I must say this.
JUNIOR MASTERCHEF IS AWESOME.
Duapui asked me to watch it,
and i'm like,
"DAMN."
These kids are AMAZING.
They're only 9 - 12 and they can cook damn good food man.
I'm watching the team challenge now.
I think Pierre is so damn matured man.
Good cook, good leader and all omg.
I see a great man in the making. :D

I'm not gonna blog bout the taiwan trip.
It's all in pictures on facebook. :)
This week, I spend 700.
Make up played a huge part, followed by food, and shirts, and nonsense.
I met quite a few people too,
like mich and gy.

OMG I'M NOT GONNA LIE I DON'T WANNA CONTINUE UPDATING.
GONNA WATCH JMC BYE.

love.

2010-12-31T21:13:00.002+08:00

Taiwan tomorrow, damnnn.
Feeling half looking forward half assed.
Please turn out good.
Gonna bring some books and my chicky pillow there.

Meteor garden, hana yori dango and boys over flowers.
Best shows everrr. :D
It's the same fucking shit just that one's from taiwan one's from jap and one's from korea.
LOVE ALL OF 'EM EQUALLY. :D

love.

2010-12-16T00:34:00.004+08:00

Ultimate disturbance.

Don't you feel really fucked in the ass when you come to realization that
you've been losing yourself and some friends while trying to keep some other friends, the untrue ones?
I've trusted you from the start and that's how you show appreciation?
Look, thanks man.
The way you manipulate our thoughts, everyone's, it's so scary.
I don't see how and what you can gain from doing this,
but since it's done, hope you're happy with the ending.
I'm to blame as well,
should've known that something was wrong when things occurred.
Now I feel angsty towards myself for even agreeing with some things you said,
for even believing you that instant.
Too late for anything, but better late than never.
So now stay the fuck away from me.

God,
why do I have so many friends that are such a dick?
Bloody asswipes.

Hell of a fuck. -.-

P/S: Things just get more ridiculous.
I mean really?
What reason is good enough to break fucking friendships.
You're trying to justify your action(s) with THAT?
Dude come on.
If you wanna shit me,
please, at least come up with something better and don't shit me blindly.

love.

2010-12-15T01:41:00.002+08:00

"& Jor if you're reading, I love you the most babe ♥; I love talking to you in the middle of the night, chatting about life and how some idiot treat us. Having our meals and stare at you in awe how much food you can eat and how much you can enjoy your food. You're the best, ever gf. :)"

you never fail to remind me why I love you babe,
you're the best.
xoxo. :)

love.

2010-12-12T04:03:00.002+08:00

Today is the 12/12, again.
Saddest day of every year for me.
So I shall not do anything and just sleep in.

I hope.

love.

2010-12-11T03:00:00.002+08:00

Today was awesome. :)
Slept at 6 in the morning,
because my dear babe Shihan niam me liaooo.
Then woke up bout 4,
met babe about 6.
Didn't go out with her till late for so long alreadyyy,
so today decided to go pat tor. Hehe.

Reached town about 7,
was damn fucking packed.
Wanted to eat at pasta de waraku, long queue.
Then went to Manhattan at PS, long queue.
A long story short, there were fucking long queues everywhere.
Babe complain tired so we decided to queue at Itacho,
queue until halfway we walked off, queue until sian.
THEN!
We found this chinese restaurant beside Itacho,
no queue, food was okay, babe was craving for chinese food.
HALLELUJAH.
The food was pretty good, quite cheap also.
Happy kids.

After dinner we walked back to Scape to find swt.
Wait for him damn long,
then about 1040 or so he finally came out.
Had my red mango, yum.
Sit down, chatchat, then he went back to work.
Then babe and I walked to the old scape there.
Talked about life, death, relationships, family.
Zucht, emo kids.

Pei her till bout 12, then went to wait for bus.
There was this malay old dick standing behind me.
Afterthat he suddenly appeared in front of me.
Motherfucker keep staring,
was already damn annoyed but didn't care.
Afterthat from the side of my eyes saw his hand moving,
that dickhead was fucking rubbing his pants.
It's the top most disgusting thing, ever.
So I obviously got freaked out,
then I walked to the Taka bus stop.
Waited for bus for a good hour and a half.
Cab queues were longer than black dicks.
Fucking cabs were all red.

But still,
today was a good day. :)

love.

2010-12-06T19:49:00.002+08:00

Today dating with duapui, again.
Lynette planted a bomb on us which was damn last minute,
and we caught mommers red-handed with light!
THAT MUST'VE SUCKED EH MOMMERS BUT TOO BAD WE CAUGHT CHU.
We went Kiseki for lunch,
I think we really ate damn little but we were damn full.
I love the tofu cheesecake it's so nice.
Then I wanted to eat yogurt,
but red mango didn't have my mochi so we went to Sogurt.
Sogurt didn't have mochi either but fuck it love the yogurt. :)
They had some cheesecake yogurt thing,
weird weird weird.

So many movies, yay! :)
Idk whether or not to watch The Ugly Truth, Scott Pilgrim, Grown Ups and alot more.
Vampires suck, suck. So boring are you serious. -_-
Going the distance is nothing less than perfect,
and Cherrybomb is not bad too.
INTRO ME MORE MOVIES THANK YOU.

love.

2010-12-02T20:39:00.002+08:00

Went out with duapui today.
Watched Easy A.
We both feel quite shitted after the movie,
because the trailer was damn good.
The first part was also quite good!!!
Then it went down slope afterthat.

Need to watch Rapunzel soon omg.
Still got next three days!
Next week watch with ahlao and girl. :)

Wore my boner tee today.
I hope Singapore's weather drops low enough for me to wear my hoodie.

And I feel like sleeping.
And going back to school tomorrow.
YAY.

love.

2010-11-30T14:54:00.003+08:00

Chaocheebye seriously is nothing want find trouble.
Keep indulging her okay,
because I am not going to.
If she fucking piss me off I will whack the fuck out of her.
Fucking getting out of control,
and honestly you two fail as parents man.
You can't even fucking control your own daughter.
So actually up yours okay I don't really see the point of listening to you guys.
She set the best example for me.
Yes I can already hear you guys saying i'm childish yakyakyak whatever.
Then again i'm not really keeping myself under control for the sake of you guys,
more for the sake of grandma.
Don't wanna disappoint her. :)
I think it's just the people from that side.

Fuck you the man and the girl in this house.
Fuck off farfar because I think my family is more complete without you guys.

I think the some other family is worst.
Suck ups, act big.
Wha yucks, grossgrossgross.
Bobian all the pattern like that.
-PUKE.

MY POINT.
JUST FUCKING GO AND DIE.

love.

2010-11-30T01:29:00.003+08:00

I'm just really bored now and saw this on lulu's blog.
And since I never got to finish my previous challenge.
I'm gonna complete this, in one shot. :) LOL.

Day 1 — Your important friend
Idk, all my friends are equally important to me. :)

Day 2 — Your Crush
Idk if it is so none I guess.

Day 3 — Your parents
Am I supposed to post a picture? LOL.
Nevermind, mommy and daddy i love you. :)

Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Meimei. :D

Day 5 — Your favorite quote
Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind;
And therefore is wing'd Cupid painted blind.

Day 6 — A stranger
Dude in red sneakers. :)

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Dear ex-boyfriend(s): most of you sucked so fuck you.
Dear ex-girlfriend: It's totallyyy your fault we broke up but I forgive you. :D
Dear ex-love: I really miss you.
Dear ex-crush: IT WAS TOUGH SHIT.

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
I love all of em. :D

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Omg I have too many people that I wish I could meet!!!
ATL ranks first, all the others rank second!

Day 10 — A photo of you taken over ten years ago
It's not in my computer!

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
None so far, because everyone I love is still alive, and I thank god for this. :)

Day 12 — A photo of you taken recently
Go to facebook pleaseee.

Day 13 — A photo that makes you happy
Some photo taken 4 years back i'm not gonna post it here so too bad.

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Too many.

Day 15 — A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Don't think there is any for now.

Day 16 — A YouTube video
Go watch my latest fb link fucking funny.

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Jia yi. LOL.

Day 18 — This month, in great detail
This month really is just empty I can't even go into detail about anything.
Most fulfilling thing I did this month was spending an explicit amount of money on glamourkills.
On all the other days i'm really just lazing around at home trying to find something to do.
Like meeting sistas for breakfast, dragging my grandma out to eat at all the different restaurants because i'm too bored of home-cooked food, not watching a single movie yet and just feeling bored most of the time.

Day 19 — This year, in great detail
Wow, this is gonna be quite long.
Nevermind i'm gonna cut short.
- Collected Olvl results.
- Hanged with old clique.
- Met sistas for breakfast now and then.
- Got into TP.
- Huge argument, clique fell out.
- Made news friends and they were freaking awesome.
- Had a break up with people congratulating me.
- School school school and school and hanging with mates.
- Had a hugeee crush on hun's friend. :)
- Played poptropica it was sooo fun.
- Spent 10k from my own pockets this year wow -_-
- Had a netherlands boyfriend. :)
- Left TP it was damn sad. :(
- Rot at home and yes still rotting.
The end.

Day 20 — A website
www.lookbook.nu xx

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Too many people hahaha opps.

Day 22 — Your favorite movie
Omg wayyy too many.
Any movie with hot guys and any romance and comedies. :)

Day 23 — Your favorite song
For now. Bruised by Jack's Mannequin.

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
ETWH. :)

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
I think it's me. Cheer up, me.

Day 26 — Your favorite book
NOOO I don't wanna choose I love all my books!!!

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Ray. Haha.

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Everyone changed my life a bit here and there sooo.. mmhmm.

Day 29 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)
My art pieces are the best. :)
I'll upload one when i'm free!

Day 30 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Omg this is simple.
Get into RP, stay there, don't quit, and get tons of money.
DREAMS IS TO MEET THAT GUY IN MY DREAM.

Okay the end. :)
xx

love.

2010-11-27T23:16:00.002+08:00

Was at Bugis today.
Apart from eating I didn't really do much today,
okay make that everyday.
Good thing is I can stay home and wait for my GK stuffs to come to me! :)

Anyway.
Andie and I were bored shitless sitting at Starbucks doing nothing,
so we decided to take some picture with the Rapunzel cardboard thing.
Apparently our picture was chosen as the best picture or something,
and we won like this set of haircare products from Phyto or something. LOL.

And we saw two hot guys today! :)
I love the first one mannnxz.
This dude wearing "SHIT HAPPENS" shirt with red sneakers,
one of the helpers at the Rapunzel show thing.
Okay maybe he isn't that hot,
but he looked like someone who was once really.. significant to me. :/
The second one was this guy on the bus that Andie fell on HAHAHA.
He was reading this Financial IQ book,
guys who read books always look more intellectual AND HOTTER. :)

Eat flower sia aiyo.
I MISS J2!!! :(
In particular Pam April Des and Dion!
Catching up with Faiz now, haha.

Emotional midnight, what's newww.
I'm reading emails that chaotiger sent to me in 07.
And then thinking bout those past relationships that sucked maxicore.
And then the really good one that I regret up till now.
And the way I can't get over some relationships one after another.
AHHH. Oh well.
Need to stop thinking before my brain burst.

PANCAKE PLEASE RECEIVE MY TELEPATHIC MESSAGE AND MSN ME LIKE. NOW.

love.

2010-11-24T03:19:00.003+08:00

I am happy, and unhappy.
Unhappy: Damage of $500 last week can be reduced by 30% if I bought my stuffs on Friday. If I have that 30% off I could have opt for express shipping and the price would still be lower than 500.
FUCK. MY. LIFE.
Happy: GK's shipping info email finally came in my mail today. After a week. This means that my clothes will be here in about, 2 to 3 weeks. YES.

I'm going to wear 'Boner' shirt on Christmas for sure because I am that cool. BONERRR.
I am so stoked that other than stoked nothing can describe how stoked I am.
I really love the word "stoked".
It's like EXCITEMENT IN YOUR FACE. Nice.

Watching 'Super Size Me' now,
it's not nice to watch documentaries that provide facts that boggle your mind.
Mind fucked. :(

Shall watch movies on my lappy tomorrow.
Tons of movies that I haven't watched,
like kick ass.

OMFG I'VE JUST CLOSED THE TAB OF MY MOVIE.
Fuck this i'm going to bed.

love.

2010-11-23T00:29:00.002+08:00

Singapore is a nice place.
We have no guns here, it's small and good in the sense that it's easy to get everywhere, we have too many crappy laws like "NO GUM" so it's actually a challenge to get the place dirty and we have cranky cleaners everywhere to fuck you up if you litter.
But when it comes to shopping,
SINGAPORE IS THE LAST PLACE I WANNA BE.
Omg there's so many brands that are not available in Singapore AND IT IS SO FRUSTRATING!

For nails Singapore only carry brands like.. OPI, Mac(THANK GOD FOR SEPHORA), chanel and all the other rubbish brands.
There's no Chinaglaze, no Essie, no Jessica, no Manglaze, no Illamasqua, no Zoya, no orly, no BB couture. NO NOTHING.
As for cosmetics it's still okay I guess,
since most brands are available at Sephora,
but of course don't expect to find everything there lah.
Oh and I finally found the name of the Mac lipstick I want,
Mac lustre lipstick Pop Circle. :D
It's freaking nice!

I'm sure most of you already know that recently lynette and I had a shopping spree @ GK and incurred a damage of 500 bucks.
So I told myself I won't shop for the next six months.
It've been.. hmm.. ONE FREAKING WEEK and I already need to get more things.
Need. More. Willpower. To. Not. Shop.
Therefore, I came up with the perfect plan.
I WILL NOT STEP OUT OF HOUSE! :D
Sounds awesome to me.

Anyway I also needa spend more time at home.
There was a period of time when I bought enough books to flood an elephant,
up till now i've probably read like only half of it.
I took out my 'Time Traveler's Wife' two days back and I haven't touch it.
SHALL READ TOMORROW.
Work can wait till after I come back from Taiwan.
December is gonna be sooo busy.
Moving house, Christmas, Little bacon's birthday.
Then 1stJan going Taiwan for a week.
Shall go work afterthat,
and I need to stop procrastinating.

I think Charlie is really cute when he wears spec,
he wore it in his nerd off video.
Woo!

love.

2010-11-22T00:43:00.000+08:00

It's coming to the end of another year,
also the time when we start looking back and the memories come flooding back.
Had breakfast with sistas earlier,
and this time finally with all of 'em.
We had a long chat over breakfast about our primary school life,
and honestly I think this is the most memorable chapter of my life up till now.
So after breakfast I was on the bus back,
not a bus ride long enough to take a dump but long enough to actually think back about my whole life which is only like 17 years.

I've got a feeling this is gonna be a pretty long post since i'm gonna write about my friends from primary school up till now.

So first is of course my primary school friends.
These are the people that, really made me who I am.
I mean this is like the first group of friends that actually stayed with you from the moment you actually start remembering things, and also the group that stayed with you the longest in school.
As in like primary school last for 6 years, so like it or not when you graduate from primary school they are the people that are with you for half of your life.
So if you actually still keep in contact with these people they practically watch you grow up.
At least for my case, they are the ones that wouldn't judge me and still have my back no matter what I do.
It's really consoling to know that they're actually such people in my life.
People whom I can tell anything to without hesitation and not even have the slightest fear that they'd turn their backs on me or stab me from the back.
Like what they always say, "Best friends stab you from the front" right after they say something mean to me. Mean assholes.
On the positive side, when they actually say stuffs that I don't like to hear or nag or scold me it is always for my own good.
Of course I have a certain group of people in mind when i'm typing all these, and it takes just one hand to count how many of them are there. But to me it's really the quality of friends that matters and not the quantity.
I love the fact that I still meet up with this group of friends and all of them are still the same old them. Probably a tad more mature, and a hell lot more of complains since last time, but we're still the same old childish, psycho people among ourselves. Hahaha.
They are the most real friends that I have.
Like what one of them said, "we're the most real people anyone can find."
I'm not saying that none of my other friends or other people are real,
it's just that as people get older they get more scheming and keep more things to themselves.
Let's put it in another way, it's harder to find someone you can fully trust nowadays because everyone is so competitive and because we're so close to stepping into the society, everyone is fighting for survival.
It's probably the same for me and my group of friends as well,
but just not towards each other.

Next is my secondary school friends.
Thank god my secondary school friends weren't bitches.
Actually it's hard for them to be bitches because throughout that 4 years my closer friends were all guys, except for one.
Secondary school was a whole new environment, because my life revolved around girls for the past 6 years and the next 4 it was all guys.
The amount of girl friends that I talked to in secondary school was really little.
It's not that I don't know them, they're just not the people that i'd approach if I need to talk to someone. I trust the guys better, with the exception of a few girls of course.
That 4 years was a lot of fun, not a good news for my grades but I loved it.
We get into all sort of trouble together.
We do all kind of nonsense together, skipping school and all.
We study together, and always end up doing retarded things.
They were so daring when it comes to doing stupid things and that was really, really fun.
How many people do you know that will grind the bench halfway through night studies and shout at random people during a chalet?
The most memorable one was when we went to Sentosa right after school,
and instead of books and stuffs our bags were filled with towels and clothes.
The best part was we all wore slippers to school together,
and it's not really hard to realise that since we sat at the same table during recess.
I think it was nice that even after secondary school our clique still stayed together,
but it's sad that we fell out over trivial matters.
I still miss Zejajnhjasc, but we all know that things won't be the same even if we get back together.
I'm glad that I still have my current clique though. :)

Then my poly friends.
They made my mere six months in poly so fun.
I wasn't close with the whole class of course,
but who cares, I love my clique.
I'd choose them over the remaining of the class anytime.
I was kind of dreading poly life before it started because I heard so much from my aunt about how competitive her class was. Like they'd compete who gets the highest gpa and how selfish they are when it comes to studies, just because they want to do better than the others.
Being the person I am, I can never survive under such condition.
My course only has two classes, one being the more competitive one, and the other one less.
Thank god because i'm in the one that is more laid-back, and I am really glad that I have friends who'll actually help me with my studies and want me to do better. One even helped me to copy chemistry notes while the other one was teaching me because I had to retake my chemistry exam.
I'm really thankful that they actually sacrifice their time to help me with something that they're already done with.
I really miss you guys. :(

Then comes this group of friends that spice up my life, habbo friends and all my other friends.
Okay it's really retarded because they're just online friends but then it brought so many of us together.
Of course there's a few retards here and there that i'd totally kill in the worst possible way if murder wasn't a crime, but excluding those retards these groups of friends are really nice people to be with.
I'm not gonna mention names but you guys should know who you are.
I've known some of these guys for as long as five to six years,
and just to let you guys know I've never regretted knowing all of you.
We're always so busy with our own stuffs, like our real life friends, studies or work and all other kind of things, so much so that we'll lose touch with each other most of the time. But then everytime we meet up we'll have a never-ending amount of stuffs to talk about, and I like that kind of feeling.
I love all the stay-overs and outings we had, those were really good times man.
We should really catch up soon.
Host an outing soon please, anyone?

Main point is!
Whichever category you fall in as long as you're my friend I love you all the same. :)
If you see this and we haven't been talking for quite some time,
chat me up okay!
xx

P/S: I hate that I can't say 'probably' properly when I speak too fast, so annoying!
P/P/S: There's a reason for the colours. :)

love.

2010-11-21T20:13:00.022+08:00

NAIL POLISHES!
Start with the random ones,
then the full collections! :)

From Zoya's Summer Ooh-La-La Collection.
Tallulah.

From OPI's Summer Sunbelievable.
Banana Bandana. I really love this.

From OPI's Colorcopia Collection.
Florentine Fuchsia.

Cancun Fiesta.

From OPI's Bright Pair Collection!
No room for the blues.

In my back pocket.

A grape fit.

From Obsessive Compulsive Cosmetics.
Pageant.

Anime.

From Misa's Fall Collection.
Sorry Just Can't Help It.

From Essie's Summer!
Shelter Island.

Sag Harbor. Bad name.

Greenport.

Essie's neon Funky Limelight!
SO BRIGHTTT.

From Lippmann's Summer's.
Call Me Irresponsible.

From Dazzle Dry's Spring/Summer Morocco Collection.
Sahara.

Casablanca.

From Chinaglaze's Summer Kicks Collection.
Sky High Top.

Custom Kicks.

From Chinaglaze's Bahama Blues collection, LYNETTE LOH YOUR FAV!
Caribbean Blue.

Bermuda Breakaway.

Bahamian Escape.

Aquablue.
This is not from the Bahama Blues collection.

From Catrice's Summer/Spring.
SoldOutForEver.

ISeaYou!

From BB Couture's limited edition.
Little Deuce Coupe.

Crusin'.

Amour's Rain Glitter.

Color Club's Summer Electro Candy collection!
What a shock.

Volt of light.

Ultra violet.

Tangerine scream.

Pure energy.

Electro candy.

Orly'ssummer Tiki Time collection!
Teeny bikini.

Sol Cabana.

Mint mojito.

Calypso breeze.

Comparison of colours.
Too lazy to type so I shall just copy the text from scrangie's. :)
Index: Barielle Swizzle Stix
Middle: Misa Right Here Now, No More Later
Ring: OPI Just Groovy
Pinkie: Zoya Yummy

Index and pinkie: Essie Short Shorts 2008
Middle: Essie Flirty Fuchsia 2009
Ring: Essie Punchy Pink 2009

Comparision of OPI's pinks.
Index: OPI I'm India Mood For Love
Middle: OPI That's Hot! Pink
Ring: OPI Strawberry Fields
Pinkie: OPI Feelin' Hot-Hot-Hot!

Index: Misa Dirty Sexy Money
Middle: Essie Greenport
Ring: Barielle Sweet Addiction
Pinkie: China Glaze For Audrey

Diamond cosmetics' Summer collection!
Pink passion.

Oh Tiff.

Dont teal my heart away.

Cotton candy.

Chinaglaze's Poolside summer collection!
Yellow polkadot bikini.

Towel boy.

Sun worshipper.

Pool party.

Kiwi cool ada.

Flip flop fantasy.

Chinaglaze's Spring Up and Away collection!
Sugar high.

Something sweet.

Refresh mint.
This looks so much like Essie's mint candy apple.

Peachy keen

Light as air.

Lemon fizz.

High hopes.

Heli-yum.

Happy go lucky.

Grape pop.

Flyin' high.

Four leaf clover.

Diamond cosmetics' fall collection!
Smokey rose.

Matte smoke.

Matte mulberry, not a fan.

Matte black. So nice and leathery.

Cherry tobacco. LOVE this!

Mulberry Mayhem.

Crushed velvet.

Matte Burgundy.

Zoya's summer Sparkle collection.
Nidhi.

Mimi.

Ivanka.

Gilda.

Charla.

Algebra.

Zoya's spring Reverie collection!
Reece.

Laney.

Lana.

Happi.

Gwin.

Adina.

Zoya's summer flash collection!
Robyn.

Perrie.

Maura.

Jolene.

Jancyn.

Dana.

That's the end.
I really like Nubar's chocolate truffles collection's cherry cordial,
but that's the only one I like from the whole collection,
and if I post the pictures i'll post the whole collection so i'm not posting!
I think Essie's pastel colours are so nice. :)

Pictures credit to scrangie. :)

love.

2010-11-06T21:01:00.002+08:00

Caught megamind just now,
the story is damn gooooood!!! :)

Anyway was watching GKlive yesterday,
like 5am-ish.
So Pickel was alone at first then later Jesse came in.
Pickel gave me a shoutout! :D
So afterthat everyone was just spamming the chatbox,
and I randomly went like,
"MARRY ALL OF US. THE TWO OF YOU. :D"
And Pickel actually said something like,
"If you can get the lawyers and change the law, i'd do that."
SO IN A WAY PICKEL ACCEPTED MY PROPOSAL! :D
Jesse was like, "what's the rush we can date first."
HAHAHA so cuteee!!!
I'm gonna stay up just for GKlive man, love it!

I LOVE GLAMOURKILLS. :)

love.

2010-11-06T03:23:00.009+08:00

BB Couture Ladybug collection!
Signs Of Spring.

Ode To A Ladybug.

Love Bug.

Man Bug.

Beetle Bailey. This is really nice.

Daisy Dweller. Winner of the collection.
Yellow with lotsa microglitters!

OPI's Shrek Forever After Spring collection!
It's good that they're available in Singapore heh heh.

Rumple's Wiggin'.

Ogre The Top Blue.

Funkey Dunkey.

What's With The Cattitude? Love the blue!

Fiercely Fiona. My fave of this collection.
Notice how my faves are always yellow/pastel/neon?!

OPI's Summer Flutter Collection.
Catch Me In Your Net.
Blue glitter, green duochrome. I like duochromes!!!

Wing It! Another duochrome, but I don't like this one because I really don't fancy red polishes.

Flower to flower.

Flit A Bit.

Twilight Matte from Nubar's Sky Spring collection.
All mattes!!! Feel my excitement bitch!

Sunset Matte.

Midnight Matte!
Nice on its own, nice with top coat!
IT'S WRONG NOT TO LOVE THEM.

Jessica's summer collection, NEON! :)
Yellow flame.

Purple Blast.

Pink Explosion.

Orange Zest.
I prefer this compared to Milani's Awesome Orange.

Electric Teal.

Blue Blast.
I think I prefer these neons compared to Milani's neons.

Okay that's all for now!
Credits to Scrangie, again.
Her blog is reallyreally awesome.
For those of you who like red polishes you should go check this out.
Nubar Risque Reds Spring collection,
all sorts of red.

On a side note,
I think all Zoya and Chinaglaze's colours are really nice!

love.

2010-11-06T01:30:00.013+08:00

Manglaze's Mayonnaise. FUCKING NICE if my nails ever stop being such a bitch this is the first thing i'll get!

Followed by all of these, Milani's Neons!
Pink Hottie.

Pink Rocks.

Rad Purple.

Techno Red.

Awesome Orange.

Dude Blue.

Fresh Teal. People who know me should know I really hate green in all shades, but this is a complete exception. I totally love this.

My favourite of all, Totally 80's.
I think neon yellow is the nicest among all neon colours.

Rescue Beauty Lounge's Stormy and concrete jungle.

Square pants!

Bikini Bottom hahaha I like this oneee!

Sally Hansen's Rockstar Pink.

Horned Devil. These few polishes are from BB Couture Spring Butterfly collection!

Caterpillar.

Painted Lady.

Peacock. I love this shade of yellow!
Actually I like alot of yellows hahaha.

Skipper.

Chanel's Rodeo Drive.

Melrose.

LA sunset.

La sunrise.
I think the colours are quite nice,
but Scrangie's post said that the formula is not that good. Ouch.

China Glaze's sexy lady. I like this pinkkk!

Chane's Paradoxal.
Apparently it's a grey purple taupe-ish colour. THIS CANNOT BE WRONG OMG.

Essie's Miss Matched!!!

Illamasqua's Shrapnel.
From Scrangie's web it says that this is a pink based metallic copper colour. Nice!

Raindrops!

Eclipse!

Pixy Stix. Orly's Sweet Spring collection, my favourite collection!

Snowcone!

Lollipop.

Lemonade.

Gumdrop.

Cotton candy.

Stick Shift. BB Couture men's line!

Wink.

Propaganda. I love this!

Jo'Mina.

Illamasqua's Hiss!

DWS.

Caress.

Boo!

Baptiste.
All from Illamasqua.

Names at the bottom!
This is the China Glaze's christmas collection.

I remember Zoya's 'Whitney' and 'Raven' is damn nice but I can't find pictures of it!
Google it if you want. :)
Pictures are from Scrangie and xsparkage,
mostly from Scrangie since most of her posts are nail polish swatches.
All of you should go and check out their webs man!
If you want cosmetics swatches go to xsparkage,
if you want more of nail polish swatches go to Scrangie!!!
My two favourite webs for now,
and it will be for a long time. :)
I TOTALLY LOVE SCRANGIE,
pretty obvious considering that all the pictures are from Scrangie. :)

Can't wait to get Urban Decay's palette and Mac's Pop Circle lipstick,
they look so good hahaha.

And omg I am such a girl. -_-
Being a girl is the worst nightmare,
for your pockets.

love.

2010-11-06T00:55:00.002+08:00

Gonna watch Megamind with my mommy tomorrow! :)
Oh, watched Social Network with Charlotte yesterday.
I love going out with her it's so much fun hehehe.
After movie she looked so disappointed and all,
then she said, "I feel so shitted."
Hahahaha exaggeration!!! I think the movie was not bad!
She just expected too much out of it bleah.
Had red mango afterthat, yums.
Went home after red mango.
So we were just sitting there,
and then we heard this voice with the fucking thickest american accent.
My hopes shot up by a million and the both of us turned behind,
they were Koreans(or so we think) and not americans.
All hope was lost. :(
But their american accent was seriously damn strong,
and my little friend tried to master it while on the bus.
They said something,
AND THEN SHE REPEATED AFTER THEM.
Fail big time though.
I told her she totally don't sound anything like them and she was quite sad bout it hahaha funny.

Been looking at cosmetics swatches since forever,
specifically nail polishes.
The colours are so fucking nice.
Love the matte ones!
Especially those from Zoya.
Quite a few collections are quite nice as well,
I think OPI's Shrek collection is pretty nice,
Orly's Sweet Spring collection tops the list though.
And Chinaglaze's christmas collection!!!
THOSE ARE THE NICEST THINGS EVER.
Illamasqua's bottles are nice hehe,
quite a few of their colours really stand out as well.
Likeeee.. Raindrops and Eclipse, GOOD STUFFS!
Miss Matched from Essie's summer collection.. Nail orgasm.
I majorly dig milky greyish-purple polish colours.
I think as long as they are pastel colours i'll like 'em all. :D
But my fucking nails are not fucking growing so no fucking polishes for me.
I LOVE MANGLAZE'S MAYONNAISE!
Sounds crappy but it's like the nicest matte white shit ever.
Oh and I love Jessica summer's toooooo!
So striking and the yellow is like the most neon yellow ever.
Can't wait to get them once my nails growww!
I'm gonna upload pictures of those polishes soon!
Like the next post! :D

love.

2010-11-03T02:45:00.003+08:00

Shall blog again!
For the sake of my bestest best friend in the world Charlotte Tan.
(DUAPUI PLEASE FEEL HONOURED)
Poor girl came and complained to me one day that nobody blogs anymore so she can only look at her own posts. -_-
Thank god for mommers' existence my friend.
Btw your posts are quite fucking emo please calm the fuck down.
I think calm the fuck down is going to be the theme of my life.
Like in whatever situations I should just scream in my head like, "CALM THE FUCK DOWN!"

Dinner date with Mrs Saverin and emo little friend.
Mrs Saverin aka Lynette Loh, is a woman with big dreams.. of marrying every hot guy around.
Or billionaires, like young ones. Hot, or not.
Had dinner at Hong Kong cafe and the waitress said excuse me sir to duapui. HAHAHA.
Halfway through dinner duapui said something like, "lucky we know you since primary school."
So i'm like, "why? if not you all won't even befriend me right."
These two fucks, just agreed with me like it's nothing.
You guys are really my bestestbestfriends ya know,
but at the same time somewhere in some corner of my brain is telling me you two are the fucks of the universe.
Agreed.

Sogurt after dinner was ultimate bliss.
Two cups of it is bliss x2 except that your stomach don't really appreciate it. Hmm.
Watched ATL's video with lynette on her Mac and stalked people on duapui's Mac.
It's really not like we wanna stalk but facebook is providing you with the tools to do so.
Intelligent people will make use of the tools that are provided for greater cause,
we are intelligent, therefore we did. :)
Spammed mommers' wall, I think we are natural comedians, among ourselves.
Hahaha yay I love my sistas!

I mean I love my friends all the same just that that I feel more bonded with them since we kinda grew up together,
from 7 to 17 HEY THAT'S 10 YEARS MAN!
actually thinking back now things we talk about now and then are so different.
Then: I don't friend you.
Now: Up yours.
Then: Hi 5 and lame drama series.
Now: Lie to me!!!
Then: Eee guys.
Now: HOT GUYS.
Hahaha things changed alot man, it's funny just thinking about the differences and how we all matured so much.

I think duapui's post(here) really makes me feel better everytime friendship problems arises.
Like, you know that there's this few people in your life that are still there.
Just go read her post it explains everything.

Okay enough of reminiscing.
This is like a midnight thing.
I hate this "midnight thing", it's so emo.
So on a happy note i'm going dating with duapui on thursday!
Watching social network yay.
Speaking of dating with duapui,
this girl forcefully made me sent her to her gate,
and poor me had to walk all the way from her gate back to my little bus stop.
I think bus stops are emos' hideout, at midnight.

Watching videos to kill time, smart.
Looking at thisiswhyyourefat to kill time, not so smart.

1153 posts so far.
This blog started since p5 or 6 until now,
and still surviving, not bad!
When I die famous this blog can be published in the form of a book.
Permission granted by me.
Please title it as, "Joanne's great and not so great life stories."

P/S: I just realised that duapui thinks that she is deep from her blogpost.
That cracked me up HAHAHA.

love.

2010-10-29T00:33:00.001+08:00

An elderly Cherokee Native American was teaching his grandchildren about life…

He said to them, “A fight is going on inside me, it is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One wolf is evil—he is fear, anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, competition, superiority, and ego.

The other is good—he is joy, peace, love, hope, sharing, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, friendship, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.

This same fight is going on inside you, and inside every other person, too.”

They thought about it for a minute, and then one child asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win, Grandfather?”

The Elder simply replied, “The one you feed.”

love.

2010-10-01T01:41:00.001+08:00

I miss those times,
I miss you guys.

I miss zejajnhjasc.

love.

2010-09-28T00:07:00.002+08:00

Little boy wanted to prove to me that he smokes.
Therefore creating this picture within seconds,
and he asked me to post this on my blog. LOL.

Hunny you are retarded,
love you.

love.

2010-09-25T21:19:00.002+08:00

Me: You are playing your game right?
Hun: Nooo!!!
Me: You know I can see the reflection from the back right?
Hun: -turns back- FUCK!
What an idiot. :P

Anyway yesterday was pretty good,
except for the fact that I can't see himmm. :(

Tomorrow,
study or not?

I wanna sleep.

love.

2010-09-23T12:11:00.002+08:00

YOU KNOW.
I've always had like a thing for nice eyes.
I think I judge someone's looks by their eyes lor!!!
Okay lah maybe not but they are definitely a bonus,
HUGEEEEEEEE BONUS.
I likeee, blue eyes. :)
I don't like green eyes.
I like gray eyes.
I don't like hazel eyes.
And a pity I don't have blue or gray eyes but thank god I don't have green or hazel eyes.
Mine are black, no it's not dark brown idc it's black.
Therefore I am special tadaaaaa! :)

Look at those pretty eyes!

love.

2010-09-22T01:15:00.002+08:00

Yeah yeah I know haven't been blogging much again losing the feel to owell.
I'll continue with that 30days thing soon enough. :)

Anyway met baby yesterday!
Wanted to watch Shock Labyrinth but heard that it was crap so we watched Devil instead.
Was a pretty good show!
Baby and I are mad losers we covered our ears for like most parts of the movie.
AND SHE WAS MAD NUDGING ME LOLOL.
And I just nudged her randomly as well.
The nudge was like a signal to cover our fucking ears LOL FUNNY.
Two of us totally pigged out yesterday ples.
We eat like food free one sia.
So I really cannot remember what we had except for yami yoghurt popeyes and red mango.
I AM FROZEN YOGHURT NUMBER ONE FAN I HAD 4 CUPS IN TWO DAYS,
and the 2 cups today both jco with nata de coco!
And I am a sucka for nata cos i've been eating that every night ha ha ha.
Popeyes was goooooooooooood I love popeyes.
I'm getting hungry and TLC's showing take home chef. Not helping.
Next is surreal gourmet and i'm waiting for my bizarre food!!!
And bitching yesterday was damn hardcore but focus should be on blackhole. :)
Not enough time to camwhore we were like rushing for time,
end up sitting outside triple one's staircase to camwhore. LOL.

Met lulu today!!!
That cb 10000 years no see her 10000 years no change.
Today also bitch abit la, just abit.
Go arcHade find her aldrin, then sit at coffeebean zo bo.
Until like 6+ or something then went taimei makan.
I think the food not bad leh!!! Kk next week go eat again.

Meeting baby next week again,
EH BABY WANNA EAT AT TAIMEI NEXT WEEK?
Or want eat gu ba? LOL. (L)

Some bitch tried to kiss my boyfriend today.
Got pushed away ha ha in your fucking face.
Okay okay she's not gonna see this but still fuck you!
Heard that she pointed middle finger to me on webcam but i didn't see,
but anyway just to return the favour.
_l_ for you bitch. or maybe one more _l_.

love.

2010-09-17T01:04:00.004+08:00

If only we could see the future we'd know what to do and what not to do.
Life is so much easier without failure, obstacles and broken hearts.

On a side note,
Louis and Zach's Ding Dong Song video is really funny.

And really for the last time,
fuck promises.

"I’m sorry I constantly want to talk to you . I’m sorry when you take long to reply I get sad . I’m sorry if I say things that might piss you off . I’m sorry if I come off as annoying . I’m sorry if you don’t wanna talk to me as much as I wanna talk to you . I’m sorry if I think about you too much & too often . I’m sorry if I say things I don’t really mean . I’m sorry if I tell you about my pointless drama when you don’t really care . I’m sorry if I come off as being clingy , but its just me missing you ."

love.

2010-09-15T22:17:00.002+08:00

Day 13.
Letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
Uhhhhhhhm, for now no one so.. The end. :)

Anyway went out with pammy today,
all the others wasn't free bitchasss.
Errr so we gei kiang watched The Hole instead of Resident Evil,
fucking hole movie was CREEPY fuck the killer clowns.
DID I MENTION HOW MUCH I HATE KILLER CLOWNS WTF.
So pammy was grabbing me like I was her boyfriend,
she must have thought I was.. ahem.
But anyway felt like a man WAHAHA who's the man?!
During one part of the movie both of us was hiding behind her scarf.
We are such losers but it's okay we're still cool.

I SAW ROZZ TODAY she is so cool. :)
Oh we shopped at fareaaaaast.
Only managed to buy like one pair of shorts pfft.
Snacked at Watami before movie,
had a cocktail and mentai cheese baked potato and cheese mochi gratin wooow good stuffs.
Then after movie went down to starhub,
she brought her broadband out HAHAHA was quite funny.

Had popeyes for dinner again,
CHOO YILIN ARE YOU JEALOUS LOL.
Baby I still love you hehehe. :):):)
Went to Carefourre,
bought two boxes of sashimi back.
Supposed to be like $30plus,
got it for $10 CHEAP.

I'm feeling hungry shit I am such a pig.
Oh Pam's coming over my place next week we're going to joggg.
She feels fat I feel fat so there we go.
We feel so fat we have the thinking that we're pregnant omg fol. :(

Hunny got his all wrapped up,
if you know what I mean.
Really can't deny that it really looks QUITE funny,
snakeeee hahaha.
It's okay hunny,
I STILL LOVE YOU! :D

love.

2010-09-14T23:58:00.004+08:00

Day 12.
How you found out about blog and why you made one.
Found out about blog when everyone started blogging,
and created one because I was bored.
Done!

Went out with sister todayyy. :)
Watched haunted changi it was amazing crap.
Was having dinner and got a message from hunny. (L) :)
Phone bill gonna be sky high this month, bleah. :|
Dinner at popeyes,
freaking nice wahaha.

Desserts from Melt from brunch the other day. :)

My Twizzlers lipbalm + lipgloss!
Like YESSS I finally found it,
mine for only $23!!! :)
And it's freaking sweet yay.
Wanted to get the buter popcorn one and the bubbleyum one,
but owell since I bought this already shall buy the others next time. :)

I've always had a thing for flavoured lipbalms and gloss.
Wanted to buy like at least 50 of smackers' lipbalms and gloss but didn't.
BUT I think I will buy soon. :D

Having the world's most FUCKING hilarious conversation.
HAHAHA FUCKKK.
Hunny you are funny,
your friend is funny,
and you two fucking crack me uppp HAHAHA.
Awesome accents you guys have there.
Hunny I love you. :)

love.

2010-09-13T21:30:00.002+08:00

Day 11.
Another 5 pictures of you and your friends.

Exams are finally overrr! :)
Goodbye exams, hello subexams. Urgh.
Went to Safra after school today,
to eaaaaaaaaat hehehe.
The noodles there are the best and it's so damn cheap. :D
I have fucks like Dion and Desmond as friends.
Dion says i'm pedo and Des cannot stop laughing wtf.
Best friends for life okay, you guys too kind.

Hunny is so funnyyy.
Earlier on he said, "I found the girl of my life from omegle what the fuck."
Now he says, "Your sister is crazyyy" and started humming some weird tune LOL.
Hahaha hunny I love youuu. :3

Mommy says i'm stupid because I always get cheated by guys wtf.
WTF MOMMY WTF SINCE WHENNN. :(

love.

2010-09-12T17:48:00.004+08:00

Day 10.
Songs I listen to when i'm happy, sad, bored, hyped and mad.
Happy: Anything.
Sad: Like we used to.
Bored: Anything.
Hyped: Anything.
Mad: Fucking noisy songs. :D

Brunch with grandmaaa @ Oriental's Melt.
Was super good,
they had super fresh oysters lobsters and all and had parma ham!
Their cheese selection abit amazing,
and did I mention they had like this foie gras station.
Was a heaven I wanna go again.
Anyone wanna go wimmeee? :D

Oh granny told me that uncle might be going netherlands end of year.
I see the need to go visit my uncle already.
BRING ME ALONG PLEAAAAAAAAAAAAASE. :D

Hunny's webcam not working.
Fuck.
I wanna see youuu. :'(

love.

2010-09-12T03:23:00.001+08:00

What the fuck was I thinking.

love.

2010-09-12T01:51:00.003+08:00

Day 9.
Something i'm proud of for the past few days.
I don't know,
I managed to stay awake for hunny? :P

Look at that bugger playing game and ignoring me.
BLEAH!

Love you hunny. :)

love.

2010-09-11T19:40:00.002+08:00

I wish there was a "I quit" button in life.
The world is getting so real I don't even wanna be part of it anymore.

Someone've been playing game the whooole day,
and I am sooo annoyed.
'Cause I can't get to talk to himmm. :(

love.

2010-09-11T13:46:00.004+08:00

From gygy's blog!

" anyway i think it's human's 本性 to flirt. right?

i sometimes will also sms with my guy friends and talk cock.

so yup. texting is fine.(ONLY TEXTING THANK CHU )

but not to the extend knn smsing every day, morning wake up must report, night sleep must say.

if like that knn be together sua -.-

i usually don't like to chat with attached males.

cause i know how the girlfriend will feel even though there's really NOTHING going on between you two.

please leh, if i see that kind of sms and i don't give a damn i not suit to be his gf already -.-

aiya maybe i'll just get pissed off at which every girl that text aldrin for no good reason :) LOL.

say me possessive also can, say me psychotic also can. 3 words for you, YES I AM."

Hehehe sounds like me. :P
This proves how un-auto some fucks are!
Know guy attached already still keep texting, bleaaah.

Speaking of gy very long never talk to her liao.
Okay shall talk now. LOL.

Yesterday steamboat + grill, damn nice! :)

Hunny is still sleeping!
Shiiit I miss you hun. :(

P/S: Another one from gygy's blog! From wendy's blog. LOL.
A boy gave a challenge to his girlfriend to live a day without him. No communications at all and he said that if she passed it, he’ll love her forever. The girl agreed. She didn’t text or call him the whole day, without knowing that her boyfriend had only 24 hours to live because he’s suffering from cancer. She excitedly went to her boyfriend’s house the next day. Tears fell as she saw her boyfriend lying on the coffin with a note on the side saying, "You did it, baby. Now, can you do it everyday? I love you."

SUPER SAD. :(:(:(:(:(
Hunny i don't ever wanna live a day without you, booo. :(

有时候真的很害怕眼前的幸福，一转眼就消失。
很怕这就像是做个美梦，一醒过来就发现所有发生的一切从来都不是真的。
可能这从一开始这就是一个错误吧。

love.

2010-09-11T03:08:00.002+08:00

Day 8.
5 short term goals.
1. Study.
2. Study.
3. Save money.
4. Study.
5. Study.
Shit.

Today is Saturday!
Hunny hunny it's Saturday alreadyyy!
At least it is in singapore. :D
Heheh i looooove you hunny.
And please don't be stupid like today again okay!
You know I won't everrr do that.
SILLY LITTLE BOY. :P

love.

2010-09-10T23:46:00.003+08:00

Day 7.
Picture of someone that has the biggest impact on you.

MEET MY MOTHER. :)
Look like she going to school hahaha.

Silliest boy alive happens to be my boyfriend.
I love you silly boy. :P

love.

2010-09-09T18:02:00.002+08:00

Day 6.
Recent picture of myself anddd 15 facts about myself.
HMM.
Picture first then!

Okay now facts.
15.. here goes.
1. I bite my nails, and uhm trying to kick the habit.
2. I love soft toys more than kids, despite my age yes.
3. I get obsessed with good movies super super easily, and I spend a bomb on those.
4. I love food that people don't dare to eat, like raw oysters and cockles and organs. :P
5. I super, super dislike chocolate. Milk and dark. I love white chocolate, but those aren't chocolate so. I hate chocolate. :)
6. I have memory of a goldfish. I keep forgetting things. There are times where I have to run in and out of my house 5 times to get all my things. -_-
7. I can get fucking stressed out about something and not do anything about it. Amazing me. :)
8. I am still contacting friends that i've known since young, and loving them. :D Sistas muah.
9. I super super love stayovers. Best so far was the one at jiya's place. :D
10. I get cold really easily, and can really tolerate hot weathers. Heheh.
11. I really love those girls night out kinda thingy but I have so little girlfriends urgh.
12. I love guys with spectacles and braces if it looks good on them, which in most cases it does.
13. I think 24 hours in a day is too little because I can spend the whole day sleeping. I am a pig.
14. I love receiving random sweet texts, those makes me smile.
15. I am vulgar, like real vulgar. Love myself damn! :)

Okay got to gooo.
Dinner with siblings yayyy,
thanks to me. :)

love.

2010-09-08T20:46:00.004+08:00

Today is day 5!
Picture of somewhere i've been too.
Here it is!

You'll have to guess where cause uhhh i'm not telling. :)

Guess which idiot is trying to act cool?
It's the same idiot who got into a fight in school today.
Hunnyyy no more fighting.

OBC today was fucked MAXIMUMMMMM.
Dion and i, mad fast game.
30 minutes whole paper done.
Fucking champs. :D
We were the first two who were done lah,
they should give extra marks to first three who complete the paper.
It's only fair. :):):):):)

Meet me at the icecream truck,
i'll buy you a icecream~

love.

2010-09-08T00:00:00.004+08:00

Looking hot baby. :D
(I look damn stoned so censored, hehe.)
Hunny you're such a liar. :(

Today is day 4!
5 habits I wish I didn't have.
1. Biting my nails.
2. Sleeping late.
3. Spending money like water.
4. Procrastination.
5. Being lazy.

Bmic today was..
pretty much screwed.
I swear I tried my best though. :)
Tomorrow OBC,
all nighter?
Yeah but probably less than half is for obc.
HEH.

love.

2010-09-06T21:53:00.003+08:00

Day 3, 5 pictures of you and your friends. :)
Beeeloveds!
Anyway last picture was taken today.
Three of us were being maxigaylords especially duapui and I since lynette was a gaylord all along.
And look at our blue keropi HAHAHA i think it's damn nice lor.
Three of us looks so sweet together awwww. :)
Damn i love them.
Might be going to find them after paper tomorrow!
Oh btw i experienced negative peer pressure today.
THE TWO GAYLORDS WERE EGGING ME TO GET A LIPGLOSS FROM FACESHOP.
Okay lah I admit it was damn nice i was tempted to buy but I really didn't intend to buy it today,
THEY MADE ME.
Bloody gaylordssssssssssssss of the universe.
Might be meeting them after paper tomorrow! :) Maybe.

Needa do Bmic like now,
fucking emergency.
OBC MST FMLLLLLLLLLL.

Dearieeeee it must've been tough on you, damn. :/
I love you. :)

love.

2010-09-06T12:11:00.002+08:00

Oh and so I found out that I have a netherlands name.
HOW COOL. :)
Need to tell mommy hehehe.

It's still 6.15am thereee damn.
45 more minutes, and i'll be going out. PFFFT.
Nevermind i'll just send a text overrr.
Call rates are like 0.98/min, wtf. CRAP.

Bigmaccc. (L) hahaha!

Love is when your hair looks like crap and he still tells
you that you look fine. Heh. :D

love.

2010-09-06T03:40:00.001+08:00

3.40am nowww,
going out to study later.
Shitz gonna be damn tired.
But owell, it's all worth. Heh.

Day 2.
I'm skipping this cause I have none.
:D

Goodnighttt needa sleep. :)

love.

2010-09-05T17:29:00.007+08:00

DAMN wish i were in netherlands.
Hope one year pass fasttttt. :)

Haha all your silly tricks,
and your horrible google translation hahaha!
Silly boy,
ik hou van je! :D

不能唱。但是，仍然爱你！
HAHA. dearest why are you sooo cute.
Roar!

love.

2010-09-05T14:40:00.004+08:00

30 days challenge!

Day 01- The meaning behind your blog name (insert photo of your blog if possible)

Day 02- Favorite super princess/hero and why (insert photo)

Day 03- 5 pictures of you and your friends

Day 04- 5 habits that you wish you didn’t have

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Day 06- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Day 08- 5 short term goals for this month and why

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Day 11- Another 5 pictures of you and your friends

Day 12- How you found out about blog and why you made one

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Day 14- 5 pictures of you and your bestfriend(s)

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

Day 16- Another 5 pictures of yourself

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future (insert a picture if possible)

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

Day 24- A letter to your parents

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

Day 26- What you think about your friends

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

Day 30- Who are you?

Today is day 1.
Meaning behind my blog name.
Uh not much meaning actually.
lifecomplications,
there's too many complications in life?!

DONE. :D

love.

2010-09-04T04:15:00.001+08:00

"But if u want to talk with me :) i will stay"

Sweetest. :)

love.

2010-08-31T20:07:00.003+08:00

Current obsessions.
Duapui say Adam G Sevani not hot.
Probably.
BUTTTTT you gotta admit,
he is fuckinnn' attractive. :)

love.

2010-08-30T23:02:00.004+08:00

There should be more of me because I have too many guys to marry.
DAMN I see hope in this world. :D

Rick Malambri, Madd Chadd, Adam G Sevani(maybe he's not THAT hot but he's definitely cute),
Mitch Hewer, T. Mills, Nick Santino, Alex Gaskarth, Jack Barakat, Channing Tatum, Ami James,
Chris Garver, Tim Hendricks, Ashton Kutcher, Charlie McDonnell, Sacha Dumain, Shane Dawson
and the few million others that slipped off my mind currently.

AND YOU KNOW IF I HAD A DICK I'D FUCKING MARRY KAT VON D.

Oh and did I mention I have T. Mills as my background of my lappy,
and I have also proposed to him on facebook. :):):):):)

Watching Step Up 2 now.
Yes i've watched 1 i've watched 3 but I haven't caught 2.
After I finish 2 it'll be 3,
after 3 it'll be sleep until I die goodbye.

love.

2010-08-30T04:19:00.001+08:00

Te echo de menos! :)

love.

2010-08-29T11:50:00.001+08:00

There's way too many wankers on omegle.
THAT'S FUCKING ANNOYING.

love.

2010-08-29T00:24:00.002+08:00

Step Up 3 3D with Charlotte and Lynette yesterday!
Had sogurt for dinner.
Step up is damn fucking good,
catch it or regret it!!!

@thomson with Michelle today.
Studied at OSD.
Had rochor tauhuay,
bo ho jiak lor tio pian. :(
Over to haji lane afterthat,
fuck Aladdin because shisha is so fucking exp there and there's a time limit of an hour.
WHAT.
But it was heaven goshhh yes it was. (L)

love.

2010-08-25T19:35:00.002+08:00

Time to lay claim to the evidence
fingerprints sold me out but
our footprints washed away
from the docks downtown~

Jeremy says:
*Need money ma
*I transfer to you lor.
!ЈORMAYI. (H) says:
*O.O so good ah. haha.
Jeremy says:
*hahah
*Dw ah.
*then nevermind lor.
*Lol.
*You need ask me lor.
*But then i need walk super far to transfer.
*But oh well.
*<:

Why this boy so niceee. Hahaha. (L). :)

love.

2010-08-25T17:57:00.006+08:00

am currently studying. (look at ma notes man.)

and then i saw babeee, say hi!

have just proposed to this guy on fb, :)
sooooo hot, gosh.

okay back to studying!

love.

2010-08-25T01:06:00.004+08:00

Studied at Esplanade library today.
FEEL SO FUCKING GOOD CAUSE I FINALLY START STUDYING YES.
Not gonna break the chain tomorrow CONTINUE.
Did sooo many stupid things today,
and took tons of pics i'm glad i'm glad.
OH AND I SAW ELVIN NG HE'S FUCKING HOT I SWEAR.
Stood there and admired him for a good five mins before I bear to leave.
Trust me if I could i'd follow him everywhere.
I will follow you~

DREAAAMS.
I WANNA WANNA WANNA WANNA WANNA DREAM THE SAME DREAM AS LAST NIGHT.
PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASE.
Yesterday's dream was like a dream come true in a dream OMG.

Speaking of dreams,
desmond dreamt that he was dreaming in a dream.
THIS DUDE FUCKING INCEPTION-ED.
WHAO.

Moving on.

TWITTER.
OMG GUESS WHAT I FOUND RANDY ORTON AND JOHN CENA ON TWITTER HAHAHA.
The best part is that both their accounts are verified accounts LOL.
Found tonnns of people on twitter last night,
like ashton kutcher joshua ang and ami james.
AND GUESS WHAT,
ami followed me back.
HOW'S THAT FOR COOL. :D
Oh and drew towner, cooper point and the vegas wake up followed me on twitter today.
WHA LOVING TWITTER. :)

AND BACK TO DREAMS I FEEL SO EXCITED TO GO TO BED,
I WANT BACK MY DREAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAM.